Screams from the heart

Honesty

2011-12-06T02:17:00.000+08:00

'Honest' is a kind, positive word/attitude for people.
It does has a simple meaning. But the question is: How many people manage to be honest with each other?

Not all, I suppose.

Will you be honest to someone when you know he/she will get hurt by your words?
I've been keeping my honesty from you since long time ago.
I knew you'll be so heart broken for what I want to do.
That's why I'd rather keep up my little happiness than seeing you get hurt.

I'm so sorry for being honest to you this time.
If only words can be swept away like dusts..

Differences

2011-12-06T02:11:00.000+08:00

Is it really that hard to live in an opposite environment as you?
It seems to be...For me.
I didn't know that suiting myself into a new environment can be so painful to me.

I know I will ended up getting regret when I choose to leave, unbearable when I choose to stay.

Sometimes life just don't give you an extra option.

2011-10-19T01:39:00.000+08:00

假如有一天
你有那个勇气牵着我的手带我走
无论到天涯海角我也会有那个勇气随你走

直到现在我依然是这样想的。

2011-10-16T02:27:00.002+08:00

其实很简单其实很自然
两个人的爱由两人分担
其实并不难是你太悲观
隔着一道墙不跟谁分享
不想让你为难
你不再需要给我个答案
我想你是爱我的
我猜你也舍不得
但是怎么说总觉得
我们之间留了太多空白格
也许你不是我的
爱你却又该割舍
分开或许是选择
但它也可能是我们的缘分

2011-10-16T02:08:00.000+08:00

无论我多么努力的靠近你

我们总会是隔一道墙的距离。

2011-10-16T02:04:00.000+08:00

Every booze is every sober's candy bar

2011-10-14T01:30:00.000+08:00

有些话有很多机会说的，

却想着以后再说，

要说的时候，

已经没有机会说了。

就算知道说了也没有可能再改变什么

我也会鼓起勇气告诉你我对你这些年以来的爱

至少我后悔，却不遗憾。

2011-10-14T01:04:00.001+08:00

一直向前走，
走不完距离

一直向后退不出回忆

才发现原来是我迷失了自己。

2011-10-14T01:01:00.000+08:00

这世界其实充满了色彩
灰暗的是我的世界。

2011-10-14T00:59:00.000+08:00

在我转身之前
偷偷的看了看

你

或许，这是我最后一次能够近距离的看着
亲爱的你

2011-10-13T19:18:00.000+08:00

心跳加速得心脏快承担不了
手不听话得一直都斗
回忆起昨天，乃然如此让我心碎

我快承受不住了

原来你所谓的 ‘爱’
是如此的肤浅
我搞得自己遍体鳞伤
是我自己拿来贱吧？

我没关系的
因为我一直都相信总有一天，你会后悔

2011-08-17T02:51:00.000+08:00

当你感到累和绝望了，你会用什么理由来坚持下去？
我问别人，我问自己
始终得不到答案。

最近状况比较糟
尤其是当我知道...
现实的残酷时
我接受不到
破碎了
完全被你破碎了
长久以来对你的印象
毁了

我依然无法接受现实
在我心目中那么的完美无缺
不是的
原来这世上没有十全十美的人
你也不是

心疼，无奈，无助

抱歉，我不知道一直以来都受着这样的折磨
累了吧？
抱歉，我做不到什么

绝望。我好绝望。
为何连你都要讽刺我？
对你很失望

真的累了...
时间，能够停住吗？好让我停顿下来歇一歇
有没有试过..那种痛苦得不能够表达的感受？
连一滴眼泪都挤不出的痛，
才是真正的痛呀。

好烦好烦好烦！

什么感情，爱情，友情，亲情情情情的去死！
什么学业，职业的去死！
什么未来，都去死！
什么补习，学习，温习给我通通去死！

为什么总是不能把自己的世界涂满色彩？
为什么总是把自己的世界弄得如此灰暗？

啊啊～好多烦恼。
有谁愿意当我的聆听者？:(

2011-07-23T23:06:00.000+08:00

Looking through the mirror
I couldn't tell you why she felt that way
She felt it everyday
And I couldn't help her
I just watched her make the same mistakes again
She wants to go home
But nobody's home
It's where she lies, broken inside
With no place to go to dry her eyes
She's all broken inside
Open your eyes and look outside
Find the reasons why
She's been rejected and now you can't find what you left behind
She doesn't know where she belongs
Her feelings she hides,
Her dreams she can't find
She's losing her mind
She's fallen behind
She can't find her place
She's losing her faith
She's fallen from grace
She's all over her place

She's lost inside

2011-06-19T17:50:00.000+08:00

Happy DaDi's day to my most perfect dad in the world :)
Promise I'll celebrate with ya next time. ^^
Maybe for others, Mother or Father's day are not important for them, or they even think that it's unnecessary and useless. But what I'm trying to say is, Parent's Day and birthdays are the most important thing to bond a family circle together. If you're not good with your parents, why don't you take that opportunity to spend some time with them? I bet there are no parents who wouldn't want their kids to give them a simple wish or a peck on their cheeks.
You wouldn't die from doing that too, would you?
Mom used to tell me..We won't understand the feeling as a parent until we had our own child.

2011-06-11T23:30:00.000+08:00

在此再度想对你说声对不起
因自己的情绪不稳定而向你发泄，是我的错
我后来才发现原来我们想的都是一样
每个人都是自私
为了自己，会利用别人
没有人会真心对我好
我一直都是这么认为
或许面对世界的残酷太早
总是没办法将自己的心门打开
亲爱的，对不起
我无能为力
我也无法回应对你的感情
连自己都不知道自己想要什么
是否很没用？:(
我不知道
原来我的所作所为
根本是自暴自弃和叛逆
用自己来叛逆大家
我知道，你心疼
我傻傻的笑了
原来那只是一时兴起
一时的激情
我既然将他当成自己的兴奋以及镇定剂

...
原来我那么坏

想回自己做的错误
泪不禁流下来
我无法解释
我也无法收回自己说过的话
我无法原谅自己所做的决定
也不会希望你会原谅我

它说得对
我过度的幻想让自己蒙蔽了真相
我觉悟了
还是放下所有心情，脚踏实地的面对一切
情侣间，不需太多甜言蜜语
或许他也会和别人说这些暧昧话
尤其选无尽的甜言蜜语
我宁愿选安全感

.....
非常抱歉
我做错了
请忘掉我对你说的一切承诺
或许，但愿有一天缘份到来时
我们能够一起努力追求幸福
只是现在...还不是时候

请你一定要相信

我依然爱你

2011-05-30T00:00:00.001+08:00

Been struggling for weeks..Or maybe months.
It's really hard for me to tell you the truth, while you're not even that sensitive to feel the weird atmosphere between us.
How could I say something that is so hurtful?
I couldn't bear to hurt anyone, not even my friends.
I know everything's gonna change. Not only me, not only you. But the people around us, things around us.
Do you know that.. I'm really getting sick and tired of your attitude.
I don't know what to do with you.
I'm just too weak to be honest, too guilty to be a liar.

I don't want to hold on. I want the strength to let go.

2011-05-26T00:00:00.000+08:00

Damn the damn weather nowadays ! The not constant temperature here kept on increases~and decreases~
And finally, I'm sick.
Just vomited in school this morning...someone still suspect I'm pregnant. *OMG!* haha.
You don't understand how painful it is ;(
Plus ! It's during my exams. Lucky me tomorrow's the last day for me. Hooray hooray and hooray for that.
But still, gotta thanks to you..for praying hard for me. Even though I'm not so sure if you really pray or not. Oh well, thanks.
I guess the most sparkling fly moments just last for a second. But it will last all the time in my heart.
And you know what? I've been missing all those smiles we had, how you lend me a shoulder when I'm alone, stay beside me, quietly, without saying a word when I'm in tears.
People used to said... When everything bad's gone, the only thing left is unforgettable sweet memories.
I understand that.
But you know what? It still hurts much whenever I think that you're deceiving me.
Your fake sweet talks, concerns, and even confessions..I don't know what benefits you could gain from me.
Heh..couldn't blame on anyone though.
So the lamb fall in love with the lion.

Please, guys. If you intend to make a girl fall for you, make sure you're there to catch her. With your both arms.

2011-05-22T19:13:00.000+08:00

UGHH ! I can't stand this anymore. I really need a break. Dammmnnnnn ! Why do we need to take this stupid mid term for 3 WEEKS ? I N-E-E-D A B-R-E-A-K !! In everything =.=
Can't wait for holidays.. Outings, celebrations, vacations and lots more.. Hmmm~

And YOU ! You, better stop acting like a jerk. Don't try to control my life. You're not my mom or dad. Don't force me to make this decision earlier. In the end you'll be the one who will be affected, not me.
So, be cool, and don't provoke me.

You jerk.

2011-05-15T11:27:00.002+08:00

BAHHHH ! It's Mid term tests. Dammit ! I'm so scared that I can't feel anything.. OOoohh..Am I having exams right now? o.0
Am I over confidence or too relax? Ahhh whatever. As long as I get back my confidence and satisfied results. But there's one thing though..I hate sitting under a hot fan. It's been as hot as oven for WEEKS ! I'm gonna melt like ice cream in anytime. Whatever. I'm just crapping as I'm tooooo frustrated for the damn Moral test.
There's always a big "?" in my head bout this darn subject.
WHY ON EARTH DO WE NEED TO TAKE THIS SUCKY SUBJECT? I've got high morality already :)
Well, don't doubt that. Because I'm just a good girl with bad attitude. Wahahahahahaaaa !! Haaa... .___.
And YOUUU ! You're starting to get me on nerves. To be honest with you, I don't need another naggy dad. I had enough with you already. I'm gonna deal with you right after exams. Wait till you see. Ha !

2011-05-01T22:47:00.002+08:00

可不可以有一个人。

可以看穿我的逞强。

可以保护我的脆弱。

不要在我说「没事啦，你去吧」的时候就

真的会放心的放开我的手然后留我一个人。

不要在我笑笑的不说话的时候

就真的会以为我心里没有觉得疼痛和难过。

不要在我若无其事的忙碌着手头的事的时候

就真的会以为我什么影响都没有受到。

我希望他会在我的眼泪掉下以前、就用大大的手掌捂住我的眼睛。

然后轻声说我的眼睛、只有微笑的时候才是最好看。

我希望他会在我面无表情的时候、轻轻的用力的搂紧我。

然后说、你在我的面前，永远都不需要伪装坚强。

我希望他会在我受到委屈的时候、把我的脑袋按在他的肩膀上。

然后抚着我的头发说没关系、就算所有的人都不相信你、你都还有我

可惜，这么一个人不曾在我生命中存在。

2011-04-30T12:18:00.001+08:00

29/4/2011~

一大早，心血来潮去学校
谁知！车死火
我的天吖～！林先生，我前世得罪你了吗？-.-
只好淋着雨从 Petronas 走去学校
其实这种感觉挺爽的
美丽的天空 + 新鲜的空气
Once in a blue moon is alright for me. But no take two please ( -.- )

其实今天状况不是很好
不舒服..
是因为没吃药的关系吗？
哒令握着我的手让我镇定
挺有效的嘛 ^^
对着朋友，什么忧郁都掰掰
临放学 5 分钟跟朱小姐决定去唱 K !
疯疯癫癫就过了一天
朱爹地载咱们回去 :P
接完弟弟后直接去补习班
本来答应了要乖乖读书直到补习开始
谁知..在那边一直跟傻婆胡闹
真的很久没试过那么癫
希望能一直维持这种感觉 ^__^
只是...
不知怎么的
一直怀念从前
怀念小时候的日子
怀念怀念怀念

还是有个疑问...为什么他不鸟我？ :(

2011-04-27T23:38:00.000+08:00

"一定要坚强！" 每当一张开眼，这就是我对自己说的话
但是太了解自己了
因为我___说话不算数 :P
我...想成为一个专聆听和开导人的心理医生
当你能让一个不开心的人恢复笑容
连自己都会充满希望
那种感觉...我真的超喜欢的。
你要坚强
跌倒一定要勇敢的爬起来
没关系，人，总会遇到挫折
别灰心，希望在明天
那些不都是我需要听的吗？
能对别人说出这些字眼
却从没对自己说过任何鼓励的话
感觉好可悲
怎么，我连自己都不能开导
又怎能开导别人呢？
怎么成为一个心理医生呢？
为何心里的结总是打不开？
脑里想太多，搞得自己好迷茫，矛盾
我不知该如何是好
我...始终走不出回忆
如果回忆和感情能够消除
那该有多好呀...

懊恼~

2011-04-26T23:04:00.000+08:00

My heart skips- a beat
It's been a long time since I hadn't felt this way.
The bitter-sweet feelings when memories flash back in mind
How memorable, sweet and reckless.
I mean I am reckless.
Most importantly, I get to confess the guilt that's been kept in heart for years
Forgive me, will ya?
You're still the same, ambiguous as used to be.
While I'm still the same, always trying to resist the temptation.
That hopeful feeling made my day slightly better in my greyish world
Please, make that feeling remains constantly in my mind

Note to self: Life...Wasn't that bad after all. :)

2011-04-25T19:24:00.000+08:00

忘了是怎么开始...原本充满色彩的天空已变得如此灰暗
其实错的不是天空
而是我自己
只怪自己把所有好事情看得太透
现实一次又一次把自己的幻想毁灭
当幸福被破碎了，你要怎么捡？
我知道，打击最大的不是我
是眼看着我跌倒了，却不能爬起来的那个人
难道你要我怪罪你吗？
我知道，我将会承受所有冷言冷语
不会被同情，反而被小看
你从来不知道...
那句 "为了我" 多么让我心痛
你所做的一切，值得吗？
连我自己都觉得不值得
他说，我需要一个会聆听我心声的人
我找的了
但现在已不是了
没有了
我也不需要
虽然，我还希望他会一直在我身旁
但人总会变
真是无可奈何..

总有一天，我会活的比现在更好
这是我活着每一天的目标。

e

2011-04-23T22:19:00.000+08:00

"You're such a sicko!"
"Yes, I am." :)

Back before those days, when things started to change, I already get suspicious.
Everything is out of my expectations
That feeling after knowing that is just so... weird.
Anyways, I should let go my anxiety that's been kept in heart for so long.
Stay tough, stay tough~ :D

But..I always wanted to cheer my friends up. No matter how upset I am, I just hope everyone can be happy all the time.
I can't even help myself to be happy, how am I gonna bring happiness to that person?
All I need is time.
Always remember, you're not alone. You just gotta stand up and move on when you fall.
How I wish I could be with you all the time, to go through everything. Doesn't matter it's bitter or memorable.
Because you're so important to me, that I can't move on without you..

2011-04-20T20:14:00.001+08:00

Staring at the blank windows

Think of nothing

The feel of emptiness makes things feel so wrong

Trying to speak out of mind

But nothing came out

Tried to escape from anxiety

But thoughts make it worse

always wanted to spread wings

and just fly away

make things differently in breakaway

wanted to escape from this place

no choice.

I realised i got no choice

I've tried everything I could

Been struggling myself

wanted to speak out loud

but nobody would listen to me

to my heart.

no, i'm half hanging there

i know i'll fall into pieces anytime

Note to self: keep holding on

2011-04-13T00:04:00.000+08:00

Here to thanks some of my beloved friends for getting against me today.
Well, THAT was fun. Bet you guys have fun by doing this to me too righto? :)
I don't really know what should I say..
Or maybe I'm too short temper to make up my mind? Not about this matter.
How would you want me to accept that excuse? I'll take it as one of your bullshits, thank you.

I guess the suckiest part is being condemned by someone who's really close to you when you need a "awww, it's okay, I'm here for you :) "
Tons of cheer ups, you know what I mean?
Some words that could make you feel BETTER, not WORSE.
Million thanks for pointing out my flaws when the only thing I want is a shoulder to lend on.
"No, Rachel. You shouldn't like this, shouldn't like that, why must you do this? Why must you did that?"
Blah, blah, blah, blah~
Oh, shut the hell up. I don't need your comments when you're not even that PERFECT.

I guess it's better for me to keep quiet as nobody gonna listen to what I said.
Except for my mama for sure lols.

2011-04-08T15:27:00.000+08:00

Hey ! I miss you.
I guess that's the only thing in my mind right now. It's all about you.
Things turn to be so wrong when you started to miss someone badly everyday..
'Cause I'm missing you everyday :(
You wouldn't know how regret I am
For those things I did to you.
I'm living with guilt and regrets everyday.
I know I can't compensate anything to you any more.

Just.. I'm sorry.

I miss you terribly

2011-04-01T23:49:00.000+08:00

April fool~~~ huhuhu
I guess I'm the only one who gets over excited bout everything
Just because I'm a dumbass?
That kindof feeling when something you highly expected turns into ashes..
You wouldn't understand, don't you ?
Maybe I shouldn't put too much expectation from you.
But its getting more obvious that you don't care anymore.
Because time changes everthing. It even change you.
Thought I should let go. But seems that you had put a handcuff on me.
Everything started to flashback how you used to tell me about forever and always
I guess you don't really mean it.

I don't know..
What's the point of holding on when everything fall into pieces and can't be fixed back?
I'm such a coward to say "yes"

Confession

2011-03-27T21:13:00.000+08:00

It's been buried deep down in heart for a long time
As I was about to confess it
Something makes me swallowed those feelings down again
I just couldn't bare to see them break into pieces again
I'd learnt that feelings shouldn't be shared
Because nobody would care
I'd rather keep it all by myself

Heh..Thought I'm the only one with scars and injures
Now only I know it wasn't only me. It's WE.

Slipped through my hand

2011-03-26T00:48:00.000+08:00

Ever tried get something that you had long craved for, but it slipped through your hand within a blink of your eyes?
You couldn't do anything buy helplessly watch it disappears.
Somehow, life is cruel doesn't it?
But everyone just gotta move on.
When you feel upset and helpless, think about other people around the world who might be suffering hundred times than you.
People without homes, family, and happiness. People who gotta concern bout food and water or wars.
You'll just realised you're not that poor after all.

Cherish every moments you had, as no memories could remain forever.

2011-03-01T23:57:00.000+08:00

It's March. Reminds me of... EXAMSSSS !
Isshh..why can't they set the exam dates after holidays? =.= or maybe right after CNY? ;(

Gotta pump lots of books to get a better results. :)
Anyways, I just realized my darn birthday is on next week lols.
I guess when someone gets older, birthday is just another ordinary day to you.
I don't need any presents or celebrations.
I just hope it'll be same like last year. Sharp at 12, a phone call with sincere wish..

It's just a small wish, isn't?

2011-02-15T02:00:00.000+08:00

1.2.2011
Singapore Exploration

Went to renew my passport at Lavender road. Got some bad news... They said I gotta wait for A WEEK to get back my new passport, which is Wednesday. I can't go back without a passport. Nicholas suggested me to delay till Wednesday. I told him I gotta ask my mom first.
Then, went Bugis Street and walk around. The place there was like Petaling Street. A more formal-like Singapore Petaling Street. Just get to buy a black jacket, a bunnay tee and a black pants.
Then Nicholas brings me to Iluma, a very nice building. I almost scared to death as I sit the escalator from the first floor till the fifth. x( Took lots of pictures there ;D
The arcade center and Cyber Cafe there was freaking so cool. Get to take lots of good pictures.
After Iluma, walk around outside of Fu Lu Shou complex and went Sim Lim Square ( Singapore's Low Yat )
Lots of stupid MLL's there. Saw something EPIC. Monks buy laptops at SL Square xD
After Sim Lim, went Funan. Something like SL, just higher grade ones. Had lunch at Funan. :)
We walked to City Hall and to Boat Quay. So freaking tired D:
Took lots of great pictures. The buildings there are fascinating. I was really exhausted after walking that far. So I suggested to go home. Nicholas asked me if I want to see Singapore's durian. I was surprised that Singapore has durian farm. I said I wanna see because I was really curious.
After walking for another 20 minutes...
Who knows.. The Singapore durian he meant is a theater =.= But it's really a nice building though. At last get to go back home and had some rest by evening. T.G.I.H (thank god I'm home)

I gotta rest for few days to heal my legsssss ><

2011-02-15T01:38:00.000+08:00

13.2.2011 Sunday

Goodbye Singapore

Woke up quite early in the morning- 9.45 am. Felt so tired but can't sleep anymore. Had headache. 1234 makes me feel so weak. Stomach ache T.T
After breakfast, pack my luggage up and watch Prison Break for the last time. Mom got the DVD, but I prefer to watch with aunt :P
Gonna download William Ficthner's movies. Teeheee ! <3
Took cab to Changi Airport at 2pm. Our flight is at 4.35 pm. After checking in, we still got an hour more to go. Had some snack at Starbucks and watched Grey's Anatomy thru mom's lappy.
On the plane - after we'd fasten our seat belts, that dum dum pilot announced that our flight has delayed due to some "traffic jam". That's what I hate about Singapore. We even needa queue up to take off -.-
At last, the plane took off at 5 pm. We reached a 6pm.
Dad doesn't seem that happy when he sees us, because we were late. But we can't inform him anything wert. He's not understanding at all. Just kept complaining. Mom suggests to go Victoria Station for dinner as she promised brother we'll have steaks today. I was expecting it though. Singapore's food makes me sick :(
But dad said too far and he was really tired- for nothing.
Mom and I know that he goes Genting all the time when we're not around. He's been enjoying himself too.
So mom called lai yi for dinner. At first went 海天. Due to heavy rain, that restaurant was packed with people. So went dad's friend's restaurant. That place was flooded with rain water so we changed to another restaurant. Full again =.= I just wanna go home, take a hot shower and have a nice chat with my hub.
At last, went Serdang's 金湖 for dinner, Back at 9.30pm
I was so dead tired. After packed my books and souvenirs, most importantly the noob's valentine's gifts.
Talked with him on the phone till 11 pm.
Can't wait to see him tomorrow :)

2011-02-15T01:24:00.001+08:00

14.2.2011 Monday

Mondays are always the worst day of the week for me. I just hate Mondays.
But for once, I feel that Monday wasn't that bad after all... :)
Because it's Valentine's Day.
A simple and memorable day for me ^^
Stupid van was really late today. I thought they forgot to fetch me LOL
Reached school at 7.10 am. My hub haven't reach yet. Have not been seeing him for 2 weeks. Missin you <3
Can't stop laughing as I saw him. He looked so cute with his new hair style x)
Passed him the souvenirs and hide his presents in my bag. I can see that he was kinda disappointed when I told him I get him nothing.

At last, gave him the cookie and the bracelet. I'm still worry that he won't like the bracelet because it might looks a bit girlish. And I kinda like it xP
So glad to see his wide smile on his face. I just feel like kissing him as I see his babyish face..
He gave me a small teddy and made a Valentine's card. I love that cute little teddy so much ! <3 It was so adorable. And the card was so cute- drawings of me. But he promised me to draw a better one. This is the best for me <3 But I just wanna get another card from him. Heheh, been greedy all the time =3

I want him to be my Mr. Valentine every year =3

Expecting. ;P

2011-02-02T22:57:00.001+08:00

GONGHEIFATTCHOI !!!!

Aaahhh...Sitting in such relaxing environment somewhere in Singapore and blogging~

Just kidding. I've got nothing to do here. PLUS ! I'd abandoned my my blog for freaggin longgg. It's getting really dusty in here -.- *blow away the dust *

Well, this is my very first time of celebrating CNY in my hometown. Kind of pathetic eh? T__T

Anyways, here to wish everyone a very happy CHINESE NEW YEAR

祝大家度过一个好新年，兔气扬眉，笑口常开 :D

2011-01-16T19:42:00.000+08:00

太阳落在双鱼座

你的性格显得非常体谅别人，敏感而富直觉力。你是精致的，具有生动的想像力，且易受别人影响。阴性的一面，这样的性格会导致好梦想，容易陷於迷惑之中，为了保持这样的偏好，你可能沉醉在药物与酒精（！）的自我麻醉中。不切实际 (谁叫我是双鱼座) ，感情易受伤害 (容易受伤的女人～)。

阳性的双鱼座和前者有很大的差别，阳性的人在事业上往往会很有成功的表现，阴性一面的人却会自我堕落；双鱼座特有的想像力会被阴性的人滥用，但对阳性的人却是能力与对策的来源。（我算是不阳不阴吧？)

因为你是理想主义者，在外表上你显出不太切实际的样子，但当你面对现实时，你却采取最踏实的做法 (有吗？)，你通常设法达成生活中为求舒适所必须的任何物质享受。

假如理想与实际生活差距过大时，你的性情将变得不稳定，为了补偿这样的差距，你会沉溺於细节之中，无法有效率地做任何改善。

你对别人深具同情心，但你通常显得害羞且态度谦逊，看来对自己缺乏自信。你对爱情有种特殊和谐的本性，而且喜欢家居生活 (还好啦)。

发展不良的双鱼座，个性倾向懒惰、依恋家庭，因为家庭是他认为最舒适的地方。这类型的人内心通常是矛盾的，易受环境影响，你的个性具有可塑性与顺应性。(我是发展超不良的双鱼座)

你对表面肤浅的像貌并不特别在意，你重视内在本质与气氛 (对)，对你而言，现实与梦幻间的差别是很小的。你书写和语言能力很流畅，对宗教抱持神秘主义的态度，对玄妙神学有着浓厚的兴趣。

你对你所爱的人非常的专一，甚至过度关心对方的幸福与否，你不自私的为他人服务 (忠诚的狗) ，不会为了要求功劳而小题大作，以至於有的人不会感激你。当有这样的情况发生时，往往会深深伤害你的心 (不被感激的付出，谁不会伤心？)

你并不是特别地健壮，一般来说，你健康良好，但缺乏对疾病的抵抗力。占星学上双鱼座掌管人体足部与排泄液体的器官，若太阳像位不佳，则易导致上述器官的毛病或肺结核。( O___O )

太阳落在第七宫

太阳位在第七宫的人，易与他人发展亲密的感情，如果相位良好，你还会吸引情谊深厚、有能力而且忠实的朋友。婚姻在你的生命非常重要，太阳相位良好时，你的伴侣和你拥有持久的情感。如果相位不佳，可能会喜爱控制他或被他人控制，而你也多半习惯强迫个人意志在他人身上。如果太阳相位不差，结婚後的生活会持续成功地发展，这种情况需依据在工作中受欢迎的程度，与上司相处、自信的态度而定，太阳在这个位置的人尤其适合从事公关工作，可望成为良好的销售人员及宣传人员。

月亮落在水瓶座

你常常突发奇想，思维与常人不同，聪明反叛、前卫而又超越时代的行事风格，到了老年可能会是个死硬派呢 (要做石头咯)！你过于追求自由空间，内心宽广博爱，朋友众多。你的母亲作风也十分独特，脱离传统典型，(我老妈的确是很独特的) 你们之间保持一种自由又疏离的关系。你喜欢潇洒有智慧，而不是虚有其表的女孩子。

如果你常常推翻先前所努力的成果，那你可能有著水瓶月座！标新立异、特立独行，重视观念性的突破，是一位不折不扣的改革派。你内心反叛心强，但十分热心且博爱，却也坚持自由和疏离感。和母亲之间像朋友一样 (BINGO !)，不像一般紧密的亲子关系。

月亮落在第六宫

月亮在这个位置，健康受情绪的影响很大，可能会导致忧郁症或其它心理疾病。情绪也同样会影响工作效率，和跟上司及同事间的友谊关系。如果你是上司，通常公司的人事流动率相当大，而如果你是职员，通常你会常变换工作，除非你的月亮是位于固定星座(狮子、天蝎、水瓶、金牛)上。

因为饮食往往是影响健康的主因，所以你有必要学习健康的饮食习惯。你对食物料理相当拿手，所以非常适合朝餐饮业发展。此外，你也相当喜爱宠物及小动物。

水星落在水瓶座

你的思考模式异于常人，像外星人一般 (难怪酱多人说我像外星人)，只身生活在未来，因为你不凡的想法，让旁人不解你所预见的世界，与其说聪明，不如说独特。理性而博爱，相信科学，从小便是好奇宝宝，一有疑问必定要得到解答，观察力惊人。善于为群体服务，很少想到自己和现在这一刻。

水星落在第六宫

水星在第六宫的人会接受专精的知识及技术训练，以运用在相关的职业。你会以规律又有效率的方式处理工作的细节；你也会要求自己要迎头赶上工作领域中最先进的技术，因此，你相当适合从事医疗、工程以及科学的工作。

由于第六宫相当于受水星主控的处女座，因此水星对你的影响力很大。就像水星在第三宫的人一样，你会有超人的智能 (是咩？妈妈常说我是个没脑袋的人)。

水星位在第六宫会相当注意个人的责任义务、以及合宜的穿著打扮。你对于周遭环境的混乱相当敏感，乱七八糟的环境会使你产生负向的心理效应，甚至还会使你生病。你同时会有工作狂及完美主义的倾向。

如果你的水星相位不佳，将会有健康状况不良的倾向，而且过分重视微不足道的小事，同时也爱好批评他人。(真的很不佳啊～)

金星落在双鱼座

双鱼金星天真梦幻，憧憬真爱，浪漫体贴又多情的性格偶而泛滥成灾。他（她）一心只想找心灵相通的伴侣(Yeah~~)，只要爱情不要面包，为爱而爱，无怨无悔地牺牲奉献。直觉强烈，对爱人的心意感同身受，十分重视你的情绪反应，就好比遇上了另一个自己一般。双鱼金星喜欢和自己心灵相通、相知相惜的异性。

金星落在第八宫

金星位于第八宫代表个人会透过婚姻、社交获得钱财。通常这个位置代表着继承，婚姻也可能与此有关。若金星相位不佳，可能会出现高度感官的特质，以致过度重视性。。

第八宫的位置会出现过于强烈的情感以及偶尔的嫉妒及占有欲倾向 (zzzzz) ，因为金星乃是处于天蝎星座的宫位中，也就是不利的位置 (OMG)。

火星落在双鱼座

火星与双鱼的结合，情感和情绪的波动将更加明显，自信、勇气、决心不见增加，精力和行动力也变得微弱。面对困难和挑战你是消极而逃避的 (是滴！)，心里的想法很难化为真正的行动。如果能学习自我领导，你的敏感直觉可以帮助心灵的成长，在音乐、艺术、宗教、心理学上，会有相当成就。你容易有足部意外伤害，或精神上躁动不安 (也对啦)。

火星落在第七宫

火星位于第七宫，代表将伴侣与公众事务溶为一体，你的婚姻伴侣同时会是亲密朋友及事业伙伴。你还会具有侵略性，拥有积极的火星特质。

在此一位置的人倾向与他人一起行动及工作，如果火星位置良好，便可以完成许多目标。但是因为和既是夫妻又是同事的人有冲突，若加上相位不良，可能会出现因意见不同，导致离婚等现象。你喜爱参与财务合作，争执也不少。

火星位于第七宫还会带来侵略性的人际关系，如果火星搭配不良在跟他人接触时，便需要学习软化的外交手腕。因为火星位于第七宫有时会为了自利或竞争性而与他人冲突，这点要特别注意。

木星落在天蝎座

你有惊人的潜力 (真的假的？)，轫性执著、冷静精明，超感而性感，特别有异性缘。你的运气来自于共同资产，可以朝宗教、心理、保险、税务和跨国事业发展。有些偏财运，懂得投资理财，另外天蝎座掌管生死，你也可从事医疗相关行业，甚至还有成为间谍和警探的潜力。小心别滥用你的深刻天赋，暗地里盈私取利。

木星落在第三宫

木星在第三宫的人抱持乐观哲学及很东方的思想，你的思想通常与时下盛行的模式很match (?)。木星在此位置使你热爱旅游，你会从事各类长短旅行，若相位不佳，则旅游时易发生意外，所以应避免过份自信及鲁莽，另外你对最新通讯器材十分好奇，例如：Nokia最新推出的手机。除非木星相位不佳，否则你会与自己的兄弟姊妹及朋友很合得来。

土星落在双鱼座

土星与双鱼结合是宿命的，使你常常莫名其妙地遇上意外的事，无论是好是坏，让你莫可奈何。你的想像力强，但是土星位置不佳时，会流于妄想和脱线，与现实脱节，甚至有被害意识，靠著灵修和宗教或许可以改善。但如果你的土星位置无不良压力时，伟大的想像力将使你在艺术创作上有高成就。

土星落在第七宫

土星在第七宫的人是尊贵的表尊，这些人不是晚婚就是与成熟端庄的人结婚，但你的婚姻会稳定且持续。你的工作能力且相当可靠，有管理、订定契约的能力，可以藉由与他人的合作奠定自己的未来。若相位不佳，则会好批评，你的婚姻对象可能冷漠、毫无爱意、爱唱反调，得特别注意。

天王星落在摩羯座

在这个时期将出现大规模权力移转现象，但不会打破旧有的范围，以不流血革命的方式，在国家政府或社会上悄然进行。而旧音乐型态也改变为以电子乐器创作的新音乐。

天王星落在第五宫

天王星在第五宫显示了会邂逅不寻常的浪漫，浪漫的花朵开的快、谢的也快，爱情的对象可能有点古怪 (哈哈哈他的确很古怪) 且是受人瞩目的焦点，你不会固守传统的道德观念，倾向追求享乐的刺激，麻烦请做好保护措施。若相位良好你的孩子具有特别的天份；若相位不佳就可能有特别的问题，如心理障碍 (甘大锅？！O.O )，建议你给予孩子自由但勿太过。天王星位于此可产生激励性的艺术天份，许多演艺人员的天王星都位于此宫。

海王星落在摩羯座

这时迈入一个比较注重现实的时代，人们希望自己的梦想能够实现，世界政治经济的混乱局面，不断重组更替，新政府、新组织不断出现，而自觉与自醒使得个人主义盛行。

海王星落在第五宫

海王星在第五宫的人能获得强烈的肯定，艺术与音乐的才能将不断透过直觉而产生灵感，你是成功的演员，因而在表现艺术方面表现非常卓越，你对戏剧有强烈的爱好，你通常会有奇特的恋情，即使身处在婚姻中，都会渴求不正常的关系。

冥王星落在天蝎座

一九八四年后，国际纷争不断，冷战一触即发，造成世界局势的紧张，天蝎与冥王星的结合，强大能量正在蠢动。金融风暴、世纪绝症、波湾战争、共党垮台、天安门事件等，都是这时期的大事。

冥王星落在第四宫

冥王星在第四宫希望在人际关系中成为主掌者，由于你的能力使家人与私人关系都可以获得更好发展。你热爱大自然，对于生态保育感到兴趣，从事相关的工作，使你获得良好的发展。若相位不好，父母其中一人会在你年幼时过世 (你咒我父母？！)。

说真的，挺准的耶 O.O

2011-01-14T21:34:00.000+08:00

13.1.2011 ♥

Happybelatedbirthdaysweetie !!!!

Wish you have a great, fulfilled and joyous sweet ♥ 17 ♥
Stay gorgeous all the time~
Although we just know each other for not long, but I am so glad to have a sweet B.F.F as you ! ;)

Love you lots ♥

2011-01-12T18:45:00.000+08:00

To my dearest Mr. LVJ

Happy sweet 17 sweetheart ^^
May ALL your best wishes come true~

LYA,

Me :D

First week of Prison Life ♥

2011-01-07T18:58:00.000+08:00

Greaaattt, can't believe we've gone back to prison for A WEEK. Isn't time passes fast like hell? D:
This is the first time I don't feel that interstice when I think about school :)
As usual, parents set the "no computers and video games during weekdays" rule. Too bad I was born to ~~obey~~ BREAK the rules !
But not anymore. Gotta keep back my wildness and put more effort on studies. I'll just be daddy and mommy's obedient little girl for this year.
Finally, there's at least ONE little thing that the school become 0.1% more like a normal school. We're allowed to wear PJs until the end of the day ! That's a great news to everyone :D I really hate changing clothes in hot + stuffy + sweaty condition -___-ll
Horoscope prediction says that Pisces is having a lucky and miracle year this year ♥
In order to test the accurateness, I gave myself a shot. And like they said, I got New Year miracles ! Awwwww ! GEEEEEEZZZZZ. My dogpooplike luck finally had changed T___T

A great week of school = a great start of the year :)

Starting Point : First day of my Prison Life

2011-01-03T20:50:00.001+08:00

OH NO ! School's starting soon, school's opening soon, school's starting TODAY ! Dehhh, it happens every year. But why do everyone still so freaked out about it? LOL. I guess complaints ain't helping you to skip schools. So just clean up all your bad moods and meet your friends in school ! :D
*ppsstt, I don't wanna go to school too xD *

Well, the first day of school is over~
Went to school with mah used-to-it mood. Kind of relieved that I could sleep well all night x)
But ended someone been in a really bad mood since the morning. Hoho~ Chill dehhh.
Get to see back my friends. ^^ *happy*
My class wasn't that bad though. With all those friends I knew sitting around me. Just that 3rd floor is ~~a little~~ VERY stuffy.

I'm still hesitating.... (~.~)

School doesn't really change much ( as dead + lifeless as usual ) EXCEPT they've changed those fences into WALLS which you can't see a single hole through it. And our poor bus stops.. gone too. So everyone gotta stuck at the car park after school due to the heavy rain. Our school is BRILLIANT, by thinking such a way like this. Give our school a round of applause~

You know what? Our school is turning into a PRISON. Bravo, Seksyen 4. Nice job. Good job. Great job. MARVELOUS !! Our canteen foods are just like prison food too. Only those taste-like-mud stuff for break? Tasty.
Boys' toilet gotta queue up and write down signature again? Nice one. Being surrounded with bunch of I'm-gonna-kill-you-if-you-don't-follow-my-orders people while eating? Being shooed RUDELY while you're trying to finish your food?
I've been wondering for 5 years... why do girls need to tie a ribbon on their heads? Like a cat with a bell? A dog with dog chain? DUH. That's funnay. But I don't think EVERYone are really gonna tie THAT blue ugly stuff on their head for whole day.
Most ridiculous is they cost you RM 1 for a stupid, cheap, low quality ribbon.

I'm so glad that this is the last year of my prison life.
Sorry for my rudeness.
4 words for this school. 无药可救

First day of 2011

2011-01-01T17:02:00.000+08:00

Happy NEWWW YEARRRRRRRRRRRR everyone ! Oh geez oh geez it's 2011 oredii~ :D
Really hope it will be a great year this year *I've mentioned about this million of times*
But the first day of 2011 do makes me a little upset

First, I can't count down with mahh girls *Desmen flew away without waiting for me*
Secondly, I can't count down with mahh boy
Worst part, we can't even chat on phone *WTH?*
Thirdly, I got stuck with my other cousins in Station 1 during count down
Lastly, I was SICK !

新年流流既然生病，好不吉利 T.T
Fine, fine.
I can FEEL that everything's gonna change this year. Including my luck of course :D
By the way, I just realized something... Every changes around me seems to be a fate.
I guess I'll just accept everything that god brings me to. Wait, I don't remember I got any religion.. LOLS

And you know what? Your exploitation gonna brings you to retribution. I'll be the very first person to see how you gonna make things right. ;)

Last day of 2010 ♥

2010-12-31T15:15:00.000+08:00

Woooohooo ! 2011 is coming and I'm so looking forward for next year ♥♥
2010...Is not a good year to me. Too much of unexpected things and people came into my life. Everything turns upside down and I was really a wrecked.
Thought I couldn't hang on...
But I do really survived in a world of chaos.
Although its a really bad year to me, but I'm glad that precious person finally appear in my life ♥ =)

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I expect to have a good year next year. SPM? So what ?! LOL just kidding. I'm so freaggin worry bout SPM ><
I'm gonna put my biggest effort for last year, doesn't matter bout studies, friends or family.
Wish everyone have a great New Year Eve :D

Shopping SPREE

2010-12-29T21:49:00.000+08:00

BAHHHH ! December and 2010 going to over soon. Time to welcome the lovely, stressful 2011 :)
To be honest, this is the WORST month I ever had in 2010. I wanted this dumb month to be over ASAP. Damn, I've never had such unlucky month in my 16 years of life.

It's the shopping week for me :D

Sunday, 26.12.2010
Went Sunway with dad and bro for my Love-At-First-Sight Converse sneakers.
I found nothing.... My sneakers' GONE. :(
I wonder if I still got the chance to buy it or not..

Guess what? Brother wanna come back desperately. I knew he's up to something

New Nintendo DS for birthday.

Pepperoni pizza~Bro's favi

Dad finally bought me a pendrive. Time to reformat my comp ^^

Monday, 27.12.2010

Sneakers hunt part II~

Well, went to Mid Valley for sneakers.

Dad wants me to text to "Bus service centre" because the bus' oil lid wasn't closed properly =.=

At LAST ! Still found nothing LOL. So I just bought this. NIKE, just DO it xD

Thanks daddy ♥

Tuesday, 28.12.2010

WANG river spree

Followed cousins to Sungai Wang for shopping. This is my first time to Sungai Wang x)

Yum yum :D

Dude, I swear I'll never go for second time.

This place doesn't suit me well. DUH.

Found nothing, so walked to Times Square.

My very first time too xD

Didn't buy much. *disappointed*

Went PJ old town for dinner. BKT !

This BKT restaurant been doing business here before I was born. Their BKT here very tasty :)

Heavy rain + flood at Puchong (on the way back)

Wednesday, 29.12.2010

Sunway shopping spree

Continue for new year clothes.

MUAHAHA :D

Peppermint mocha espresso or something. Tasted good :D but Toffee one tastes BETTER

And....
Welcome back honey! x)
Miss you so much :(

Haih..My highly expectation ***** turns out nothing.
Really disappointed T___T

Again, December SUCKS TO THE MAX !!

2010-12-26T00:19:00.000+08:00

Lovers Tarot

Present Situation

Six of Cups

Briefly: There are fortunate and fun events coming if you allow yourself time to stop and smell the roses.

Full Meaning: This is often associated with memories of past events, in youth or with your early family life. Perhaps someone from your past catches up with you and brings some good news into your life. It is also a card suggesting that you allow the child within to come out and have some fun and get togethers with those you care about. The season can be representative of Spring or Summer and also suggesting that that time will bring happiness and contentment. You may also be on the receiving end of some lovely gifts, and sometimes particularly flowers. There are fortunate and fun events coming if you allow yourself time to stop and smell the roses, so to speak and to get out there amongst others in the world and socialise. You may also purchase new clothes during the coming few months.

Your World

The Tower

Briefly: For some people this can mean a radical change in their lives that was unexpected. It can be major house move, change of location to a totally different area or country, a divorce, or other sudden development which means you have to adapt to the ever changing forces around you.

Full Meaning: It can be major house move, change of location to a totally different area or country, a divorce, or other sudden development which means you have to adapt to the ever changing forces around you. Sometimes if means that a radical overhaul of your life is needed to put things into a different perspective for you. You may have been in a rut or felt unable to make new changes, and the energy of this card shows that somehow an event will occur that gives you the opportunity to do just that. If some disaster does strike that you have difficulty coping with, be aware that for some reason there is a lesson or a message in the experience for you to learn from. If a relationship ends around this time, take heed that this was meant to be, and that your resistance to move with the ever changing tide will be made more difficult if you do not adapt. It will be easier on yourself if you can remain flexible and ready to do whatever you have to do when the time comes.

Your Lover's World

The Hermit

Briefly: This card as it reflects a deep thinker, someone who spends time in isolation mulling over the mysteries of life. Much time may have been spent this way, and now it is all about to change.

Full Meaning: If you are not in a relationship at this point in time, it is likely that you soon will be as this can symbolise the end of being alone, you finally find what you have been looking for, which may have been right under your nose. There is also a deeper significance to this card as it reflects a deep thinker, someone who spends time in isolation mulling over the mysteries of life. Much time may have been spent this way, and now it is all about to change. Prepare yourself in whatever way is necessary. Maybe you need to revamp your image or put on some brighter clothes, rather than hiding yourself under a huge coat or cloak.

Nature of Issues

Queen of Wands

Briefly: You may also be about to meet someone very special with whom you fall in love with and marry.

Full Meaning: If you are this woman then you have truly found your destiny. If this is the woman you are about to become, then rest assured your future is secure and you will find all of your needs met. You may also be about to meet someone very special with whom you fall in love with and marry. This may develop during the warmer months of the year, as in Spring or Summer. If this is someone you know, then value her friendship, for she is loyal and trustworthy. If you are a male, you may meet this woman through a friend and become involved with her in a romantic relationship. If you are a young person, this person could be your mother or a teacher, or both.

Obstacles

Ten of Cups

Briefly: This card symbolises great happiness and contentment.

Full Meaning: This card symbolises great happiness and contentment. Two people are brought together in unison and peace to share a special time in their lives. A joint project has obviously reached fruition and they are proud of their achievements and wish to celebrate in grand style. If you draw this card you may rest assured, that even though it took a long time to get where you are, it has all been worth the effort and the energy expended. You can relax in your new found comfort zone and pursue your other objectives with peace of mind, knowing that your life is now more secure than it has ever been.

Lessons and Signs

Four of Pentacles

Briefly: You are about to finally achieve your goal of financial security and freedom.

Full Meaning: If you are this woman you are about to finally achieve your goal of financial security and freedom. You will be able to protect yourself from the adversities of the past and gain total financial control of your life. You may also be able to teach what you have learnt to others.

Your Hopes, Fears and Desires

The Hanged Man

Briefly: There is some type of time lapse going on around you. Things have not quite reached fruition and you have to take a wait and see attitude.

Full Meaning: When you draw this card you are being advised that there is some type of time lapse going on around you. Things have not quite reached fruition and you have to take a wait and see attitude. There may be some delay to your plans and it is best to be patient and bide your time. Someone may seem unbalanced around you and creating a difficult though not unsolvable problem. Trust your judgement and make allowances for this for the time being. Time is the great healer of most dilemmas so be the keeper of your own counsel and it will serve you well. Someone may also be having difficulty with their leg and unable to walk or get around as they usually do. They may need a walking stick or crutches, just temporarily. Give a wide berth to anyone who is not in the best of health either physically, mentally or emotionally. If you have to make an important decision around now, take your time to weigh all the facts and be sure that it is the best choice possible.

Your Lover's Hopes, Fears and Desires

Two of Wands

Briefly: Time to consider a new move in your life that will make big changes to your existing living arrangements.

Full Meaning:
This can suggest that you are about to consider a new move in your life that will make big changes to your existing living arrangements. You may actually uproot yourself and move to another country, another state or another town. Your job is obviously undergoing some kind of transformation and you may be breaking new ground with some new endeavour. This will require your time, your patience and your strong belief in yourself that you can do anything you set out to do.
You could be presented with a rather unique opportunity that leads you on to pursue your wildest dreams. Or you may have developed your own vision or idea and be in the process of bringing this all to fruition by your very own hands. Don't let others sidetrack you at this stage, for you are vulnerable to suggestion and may listen to some bad advice or discouragement. Trust in your own wisdom and you will ultimately have the last laugh.

Challenges

Eight of Swords

Briefly: A difficult situation to deal with.

Full Meaning: This can be a difficult situation to deal with. There may be restrictions in your life that you would like to be freed from. It is also a mentally stressful occasion that requires clarity of thinking and forethought to resolve. If you keep your wits about you and refuse to be depressed you will manage to sail through this time with flying colours and be amazed at your strength of will when you have come out of the other end of the fog and retrospectively look back on how well you handled yourself and the dilemma you had faced.
Endurance is the key to coping right now and your decisions may have far-reaching consequences. You will find you have matured throughout the process of dealing with your problems. You may have to let go of relationships and friendships and this will prove to be an unburdening for you and allow you the freedom to pursue your own goals.
Do not be dismayed by these goodbyes, for they are a necessary part of your new path to follow, unhindered by a lifestyle that had cramped your style and your latent talents.
Now you will start to blossom and to produce good works in whatever field you focus on right now. Allow flexibility in your thinking for fresh ideas and ways of doing things will open new doorways to your true destiny

Outcome

The Fool

Briefly: Journey of unique and unknown destination. Innocent of life and will have to learn by his own mistakes. He is a wanderer, with great enthusiasm for life and for love.

Full Meaning: This card shows a picture of a young man walking towards a cliff edge, with a long rod leaning over his shoulder. On the end of the rod there appears to be a handkerchief holding all of his worldly possessions. Following beside him is a small white dog. He is almost oblivious to what pitfalls may lay before him. He is on a, a journey of discovery. He is almost like a tourist, as he looks right, left, above and below to anything that catches his eye. He is curious and adventurous. He wants to know everything and is keen to look, learn and discover whatever life is going to teach him. He is innocent of life and will probably make many mistakes along the way. He is a student of life and will have to learn by his own mistakes. He is a wanderer, with great enthusiasm for life and for love. He is young and open-minded, with a desire to have many new and varied experiences so that he can get a taste for life and decide what it is that he really wants. He does not yet know what the world will bring, nor what his unique destiny is, but he will soon find out.

2010-12-25T00:49:00.002+08:00

World - Completion (Orthotopic)

Fortune - Love

You and your lover have entered a path of mutual commitment. The two of you will continue to grow, to learn, and to live with each other. This is a beginning, a symbol of commitment. It will be a relationship that is full of creativity. You and your lover will become a pair of model couple and obtain lasting love.

2010-12-24T22:17:00.000+08:00

Happy birthday to my BRADAAAA !
And wish everyone have a great Christmas Eve. ^__^

Hubbay, hubbay, missy you sooo much :P
I wanna count down with you

2010-12-22T16:30:00.000+08:00

HAPPY WINTER SOLSTICE everyone !! :D
Wish everyone can spend their time with family today ^^
Seems that I always don't have the fate to celebrate this day. Haha~

21/12/2010
Went Redbox with cousins. It's a BLAST ! :D

Meet my new family member~ Mom bought this for me. It's soooo adorable xD

New iPad~

OMG Leehom !

Cherry Mousse.

SCRUMCIOUS !

Santa Baby came down from the chimney !

Seriously, it's easy to steal those stuff

GOSH ! What was that? o___O

Went Serdang for SUPPER

Desmen finished whole 3 bowls

22/12/2010
Afternoon woke up, found this outside my door.
It's a Christmas Surprise !

I love this soooo much. Thanks ♥

Have a nice trip tomorrow sweetheart ^^ Gonna miss you lots T.T

2010-12-16T13:27:00.001+08:00

15th December 2010
EARLY Christmas celebration with L.V.J

Sozai face

Smile a bit weih, Hot dog promoter

Thanks darling for helping me finish those nasty onions off ♥

After lunch, went popular for my brother's birthday present

New edition of Wimpy Kid. Wooot it's in my favi color !

Went Wattson for hair dyes and other stuff

犹豫不决-ing

Ngam ngam cham cham

Hamsters ! ♥

Awww look at this fur ball

Watched Rapunzel with him. The Social Network is 18 px, and both of us don't like Narnia. So ended up watch Rapunzel. Well, wasn't that bad actually.

After movie, went M.O.F for dinner.

You know WHAT ?! They got LOTS of japanese desserts there. And I can't resist it so I chose MOF over toilet bowl x)

This is AWESOME

I got "hai chao" o.0

VJ's unagi set

Mineeee ♥

Don't keep "ngam" when you're eating nar. Later choke then you know

He says he's gonna bring me here next time xD

Hou-hou-hou~Merry X'mas

Worst model in the world

Worst promoter in the world

MERRY CHRISTMAS !

Furry balls for Mini X

VJ bought some decorations for me to decorate my mini X. What's mini X?

Mah mini X ! ♥ Mr Lim's X'Mas present.

This is the first time I ever get a TREE for X'mas. Thanks darling for buying me this. Been wanting an X'Mas tree since last time T.T

Noob VJ fooled me says my present has three colours. I thought it has 3 colours cause he added an "S" in it. But ended he says he told me it has TREE color, not THREE. Great. Got fooled again T_T

Helped dad buy this. Take it as X'Mas present ya, daddy

Auntie bought me this as souvenir. Thanksss. I love Jasmin green tea :D

Huhu~finally bought this. RM30++ T___T But that's okay, I'll take good care of it

Brother's birthday + X'Mas present. He's a Ben 10 freak. Hope he likes this.

Mr Lim forgot this...Hair dye..Looks gay, huh?

Paper stars. I've got some plans x)

Thanks sweetheart for giving me a great day today. And I really love the tree you gave me ♥

2010-12-15T01:16:00.001+08:00

I guess my blog's getting dusty. DUH. It's a hard task for me to update my blog often during holidays.
Because I got NOTHING to post ! GAHHHHH D:
Can't stop changing blog skins. I wonder why... :P
Been having bad days this week. Really down~down~~down~~~
What to do? :( But what hurts the most is...
点解连呢都甘对我？ T____T
Sighs..Finally get to tell the "truth"
But what I get is sarcastic comments a.k.a no reaction. I just can't believe you would blame it on me just because of your personel stuff ! :(
I'll never forgive how you lied on me too. THAT was hurtful.
But still..Thanks for telling me the truth. I really made the right choice. I used to be SOOOOO regret for what I'd decided. But NOT anymore. It's all thanks to you :) Bravo ! *clapsss*
You could get the "Heart breaking trophy".
Time to let go my dumb past.

→ Recent hot news: A good looking guy committed suicide because of breaking up with his GF..Oh well....
Holy good gracious ! How can he wasted his 22 years life just like that? I really feel sorry for his family. His parents gave him everything..love, money, education, caring, etc. etc. and he suicides just because of a girl that dumped him. That's silly. Well, at least he should donates all his organs before he dies. Or pay back everything his parents gave him.
There are so many people who wants to live but don't have any chance to..Why would a person who got everything wasted his life for small matters? :(
Worst of all, many people started to follow his leads. Which was terribly WRONG. I bet Malaysia gonna be famous in committing suicide. Malaysia BOLEH ! :D
Just... Don't do anything stupid. Nothing's more precious than your own life, ya?

Superbly looking forward for tomorrow's outing with Mr. LVJ ! :DDDD
It's been 2 months.. T____T
We're gonna have a blast tomorrow ♥

Black Son

2010-12-13T00:02:00.000+08:00

Today very black son 今日好黑仔

SOOOOO FREAKING BAD LUCK TODAY
DUHHHHH
I can't believe you would treat me like this ! HOW COULD YOU? T____T
Mom's having FREAKING bad mood today. Afternoon, let her shoot.
At night, let her shoot again. Oh well, hope it will be a better day tomorrow =.=
No transport to school next year. GAH ! That's what I fear the most. I'm gonna beg mom to move ASAP (>.<)
Stupid Quan went cl***ing. Wai zap. Kinda envy..
I wish I'm 18 now. Well, since I'm 16 and I get family + friends + love + studies problems, I'd rather be an 18 years old teenager with problems and FREEDOMS
K, done crapping. Seriously don't wanna go for tuition tomorrow. Because it's gonna be really A.W.K.W.A.R.D

2010-12-09T17:48:00.000+08:00

I can't believe I was so terrified
Felt so helpless and frightened..
Just can't believe you just stay there and watched things happened
How could you?
Thanks sweetheart for accompany me till sunrise
How could I remain calm without you here?
Sometimes when things happened, you could see the true face of a person
But I just can't accept this.
Where's your humanity?

You're insane.

2010-12-04T20:18:00.000+08:00

S.A.U same-as-usual

Tuition was canceled today. Wooooooot ! Mom's really mad about it. Well, I'll go for replacement on weekdays then. Woke up early this morning. Expecting, expecting, and expecting. But my expectation turns out nothing !
Mom broke her promise today. Felt so broken hearted about it =(
It's just a small, small request. Haihhh.. 算了吧～
Been drawing for whole day. *satisfied*

Mom says my drawings are pretty. But the problem is..She doesn't know what I'm drawing.
( ~.~ ) I don't know whether should happy or not.

Mom says I 没家教
W-H-A-T ?! Fine. I'll be a better person in no time.
斯文 + 大方 + 有家教 + 礼貌彬彬 + 优雅 + 有气质
Wait till you see !

2010-12-04T01:35:00.002+08:00

New skin for beloved December ! Yay ! It's CHRISTMAS !
Gotta change into another mood.

But.....

Desperate to see you tomorrow T.T

Can't make it..

Changes

2010-12-01T21:50:00.000+08:00

Hello December ! It's the very last month of 2010 ♥ Gotta update my blog for this xP
New months, new changes. Well, although I didn't change one bit.
Of course, something had changed. But to others or her it was a good news, although I heard sighs. Or maybe those words are just for cheering me up. Doesn't seems to give much reaction when I "finally" found a way of solving it. I guess she's just wanna stay permanent and change nothing.
Just don't wear mask infront of me. You know I hate this. Let's be honest, alright?
I don't mind being like this. Or maybe I do mind a LITTLE.. But just don't ever fake with me.
Well, never mind. I've got nothing else to say.
Laughters are ringing around my ears telling me that I'm more than a failure.

I guess I need a better reason to move on.

Weary, 厌倦

2010-11-28T16:06:00.000+08:00

世界是美好的
不知从多少开心果说过
但能感觉到那美好的，又有多少人呢？
每天上班，下班，星期六和日补习
每一天重复着一样的东西
幸苦了一整天，回到家看到的场景
真让人愤怒又无奈
你的所作所为仿佛诉说着你是世界上最可怜的人
对，你是可怜，也可悲
你从无理会周围人的感受
你只看见你自己的痛苦
我又何尝不感到如此？
我知道
世界是多姿多彩的
但不是我的世界
又有谁会用真正的笑容来迎接明天的太阳？
又有谁会在最绝望时还会笑着说他还有希望？
对自己问了一个简单的问题
你活着的意义是什么？
16 年了，我还是找不到答案
我活着的意义是什么？
没有。
诉说了心中的烦恼
始终得不到别人的认同
你不许我跟别人比较他们的幸福
但你却比较我跟别人的辛苦
你看看，外面有许多人比你更辛苦
辛苦，能拿来比较吗？
自己的痛苦，只有自己才知道
没有人有资格批评我的人生
对所有的东西都厌倦了

First time

2010-11-25T20:55:00.000+08:00

November 22

First day of work

Followed daddy back to office. My very first day of work

In case I was bored, I brought my iPod, camera and other stuff for entertainment.
⋆__⋆

Breakfast

My long lost 7 zai. Finally found him back. Hee!

DO~ a.k.a Documents Order

listen to iPod+sms+facebook. Part of my job too xD

Tea break! Yum Yum :D

Overall, my job was quite relaxing, although lots of stuff to key in. But RM XX per day, RM 1XXX per month, worth la xD

Mah 哒令～ I miss ya ♥

Wanna play chess with you ^^

2010-11-22T22:20:00.002+08:00

Wooot! Mom bought a drawing board for me. She wants me to continue my drawing hobby. But I told her it's been long time since I hadn't draw. I used to draw all day and night few years back. She says I can improve my drawing. So I started to draw again

My very first artwork with drawing board.
I didn't know that drawing board was hard to use =X
But I just post it on FB to take some useful comments. Ended up...

Second picture. Still so awkward!!! :( I'd better practice more.

Sweetheart, no more what happens, you're not alone. I'm always here holding your hands and go through everything :)

Boredom 101

2010-11-21T01:19:00.000+08:00

Form 5 classes had started today. Gotta say goodbye to my weekends and embrace the knowledge. This morning was a perfect weather for me to hide myself in my cold, thick blanket and sleep throughout the morning. :( Went to register with Desmen and Choo Choo. That place was sooo crowded. Luckily Desmen get to stay in the same block with us. ;D

First subject: Biology

Teacher's "bacteria"

BREAK! Went Mc Dang Dang

Spicy Mc Chicken, my all time favorite

The rooms were freezing cold. We, the mighty three were shivering for 5 hours straight. Although I had a jacket. I guess those teachers treat us as dead meat or something.
Man, I didn't know that we tuition for 2 and half hours for EACH subject. Mom told me we tuition just for a day. Thanks for the wrong information. Worst part, we gotta tuition on Sunday too. At 9am.

Are you kidding me? Means we gotta wake up at 7 in the freaking morning and on the road at 8.

Besides of groaning, we just groan.

Thinking bout you

Late evening, followed Choo Choo for dinner. Well, she asked me to accompany her for some reasons. Since I got nothing to do at home, I just grant her wish :D

But we ended up went to someone's open house again.

Man, I was so embarrassed when everyone thought I'm Cavy and Cavy's her sister.

Birthday agar.

No Carlsberg, no life.

Just kidding. I prefer Tiger.

Pretty exhausted. But I really enjoy having "memorable" time with them ;P

2010-11-19T20:32:00.001+08:00

Got scolded by Desmen Lim yesterday cause I didn't tell him anything. = =ll
I just knew most of the people been wondering what happened to us.
Does our relationship brings you guys entertainment?
Or just some juicy gossips? I don't think I need to inform anyone about my personal stuff. Not even my mom.
But I gotta thanks my good friends for being there when I'm down. Love you guys xD
Sorry to those close friends that I didn't say anything :( and noob Desmen, sorry for not telling. =S Biao jie sayang fan~~Hahaha
Anyways, everything back to normal x)

I know this sucks. Although I can't accept this, and you can't accept that, but there's nothing we can blame on both sides. Cause we're the same.
It's a tie.

Hey, girl. If you're reading my blog... I'm here to tell you:

I KNOW WHAT YOU HAD DONE TO MY BOY.

I guess you don't understand English so let me help you translate

Translation: 我知道你对我男友做过什么

Irritability

2010-11-17T18:55:00.000+08:00

烦躁的一天
一直犹豫不决的...
终于过了 1礼拜
音信全无
难道只有我在那边一头热？
或许你已经真的不在乎
对你来说也许是件开心的事情吧？
我就像是个白痴那样等待着
我还期望什么？
烦死了
算吧...
反正我又没什么特别
想找女友，到处都是
算了算了
为一个不在乎自己而落泪
真愚蠢

....

看来又被某某人误会了
一定是他问了那些东西
唉
算了
不想再解释那么多
你爱怎样想就怎样想吧

2010-11-17T15:29:00.002+08:00

Pisces

Daily

February 2 to March 20

Many Pisceans are becoming more secretive and withdrawn during November 17-19, which may not be the best way of handling a situation.

Weekly

On Monday Mars forms a helpful link to Saturn when your boss or other person in authority offers you the chance of a lifetime to get in on the ground floor of a business that will prosper. On Tuesday the Sun forms a helpful link to your co-ruling planet Jupiter when a contact with a person in another country makes your day and brings or sends many financial benefits too. On Thursday Mercury forms a helpful link to Saturn when you can pave the way for a more permanent career role that will continue well into the future. Also today the Sun clashes with your other your co-ruling planet Neptune which could bring up some confidential matters that have been kept very secret and are now open for inspection. On Friday the Sun forms a wonderful link to Uranus which is just what you need to get you moving again in the direction that you know you were destined for. On Sunday Mercury forms a close alliance with Mars which could bring a conflict concerning travel directions or destinations.

Monthly

This New Moon, your ruler, Neptune, is retrograde in Aquarius and conjunct Chiron in that sign. This conjunction forms a double square to Mercury in Scorpio as it forms a double trine to retrograde Venus in early Scorpio. This lunation expresses the opportunity to look beyond grudges of the past and embrace forgiveness on the soul level. This is regarding others as well as self. Take the opportunity to reflect and be well! On the Full Moon, you ruler is now direct and still conjoined to Chiron. In this chart, this conjunction is in a T-square with the Lights as it forms a double trine to Venus, now direct in late Libra. Be at peace with love â€“ its ups and downs â€“ joys and pains. It is simply what it is â€“ LOVE.

2010-11-17T15:17:00.000+08:00

Two Card Tarot

Where to apply your focus

Nine of Swords

Briefly: An amount of inner tension that needs to find an outlet.

Full Meaning: When you draw this card you are experience a huge amount of inner tension that needs to find an outlet. You could feel you are in a stranglehold situation in various areas of your life and it may seem insurmountable at this time. However, this is quite a temporary state of affairs. All you really have to do is decide what it is that you really want to do about your life and current situation, and then start the wheels in motion to bring it about. This card is also about thoughts and how your thinking is strongly affecting your actions. If your thoughts are depressed, then you may find that you don't quite know just yet how to change anything. All is not lost. You just need to try to alter your thinking slightly and soon you will gain a new perspective. It is just a matter of a little time to allow the thought process to really sink in and then you can take the required action to do what it is necessary to change your life. The amount of time required may also very well correspond with the number nine, e.g. nine days or nine weeks or in the ninth month of September may somehow be relevant. Whatever you do, don't allow other people to make your decisions at this point in time, for you may be very misled and later regret whatever action you took that was not your own true wish.

What Must be Done at a Later Stage

The Empress Briefly: A woman of position, power and authority. It may be expressed in the home or as head of a business empire. She is commanding and forthright. She makes wise choices based on all the information she can gather. This can also mean that you are entering a time of prosperity and abundance. Good luck and opportunities may literally just drop in your lap.

Full Meaning:
If this card represents some elements of yourself yet you are still quite young, you can look forward to a lovely future as you grow into becoming the Empress. Your life will prosper and you will get most of your needs met, yet give out an abundance of love and caring to many others over the years.
If you are not the Empress, then this person is either a close friend or relative, or you are just about to meet her. She will welcome you on first meeting as if you are already old friends. If you are a mature woman, the Empress could become your next best friend.

7 days

2010-11-16T22:29:00.002+08:00

Where are you?

I'm still waiting.

Without you

2010-11-16T22:28:00.002+08:00

没有你的深夜不能入睡
没有你开了灯都很漆黑
没有你的影子拿什么跟随
没有你看不见夜色的美
没有你的咖啡不能麻醉
没有你我是谁都无所谓
没有你叫我宝贝我连哭都不配
没有你我该吻谁的嘴
没有你的酸酶怎么嚼都无味
没有你谁显得我珍贵
没有你我们的之间还能有谁
没有你就像断了手臂
没有你的滋味没有笑没有泪
没有你我将要学会慢慢崩溃

2010-11-15T22:59:00.001+08:00

冷咖啡离开了杯垫
我忍住的情绪在很后面
拼命想挽回的从前
在我脸上依旧清晰可见
最美的不是下雨天
是曾与你躲过雨的屋檐
回忆的画面
在荡着秋千梦开始不甜
你说把爱渐渐放下会走更远
又何必去改变已错过的时间
你用你的指尖阻止说我再见
想象你在身边在完全失去之前
你说把爱渐渐放下会走更远
或许命运的签只让我们遇见
只让我们相恋这一季的秋天
飘落后才发现这幸福的碎片
要我怎么捡

2010-11-15T19:31:00.002+08:00

Your Daily Horoscope: November 16, 2010

Pisces

There may be a get-together or conversation with friends or family about the way things were in the past, Pisces, but it may turn out to be more than just a day of reminiscing. The transit of the Moon makes it likely that these reflections will produce and inspiration that is somehow profitable for you. As long as you don't get stuck in a comfort zone based on what you've already achieved, you are likely to discover something that can help you achieve more.

Compatibility: Taurus
Mood: Humble
Your Daily Lucky Color: Blue
Lucky Number: 52
Lucky Time of Day: 8pm
Your Love Horoscope

When it comes to love you are feeling a lot of cooperation right now, Pisces. If you are attached, someone dear to you may be contributing to the value that you are putting into your relationship, and this is bringing out your more unique and unusual qualities. Single? You may find that someone close to you understands and is supportive of your eccentricities. This is one of those matches that appears a little too good to be true on the outside. You know what they say about that, don't you?

Expectation

2010-11-15T19:21:00.000+08:00

Final day of school in 2010. Goodbye my sweet 16 school life.
I know you wouldn't come. But I'm still expecting you to walk in the class.
Got back all my papers. Everything's a wreck. Such a failure in everything.

Benwu's paper LOL

Posing

Noob desmen

All the best for next year

Bullshit Day

2010-11-15T00:09:00.000+08:00

Haihh~ another day without you :(
Woke up by my neighbors. They were having karaoke at home. They sing Hokkien songs summore. =__=ll
In the afternoon followed dad to Jusco. Don't know what's wrong with him today. Been complaining EVERYTHING since afternoon till night. And brother begs him not to talk.
Day dreaming for whole day~ Ahhh.. I'm sure he'll say "you got nothing else to do?"
LOL hell yeah, I've got nothing else to do but sitting here and missing you. You happy? Noob.. I miss you so much.

Went for 麻辣 steamboat for dinner. Weeeee~ Happy nia ^^
Dad told me and brother a short story:

Once upon a time, (always start from this)
There's a bird flying in the sky
It wants to move to another place because of winter
Unfortunately, it got frozen
So it dropped on the ground
Then, a cow passed by
It shit on the bird (yeaaa sounds gross)
And the bullshit warmth the frozen bird and the bird was saved
So the bird was so happy that it starts to sing
Then, a rabbit came and eat the bird up.
Me: rabbit is a herbivore. It doesn't eat MEAT, dad.
Then, a deer came and eat the bird up.
Bro: a deer also don't eat meat
Then, a lion came and eat the bird up.
So what's the moral value of the story?
Me: bullshit is useful :D
Bro: bullshit is tasty (lame)
Dad: there's two moral values in this story.
First, bullshit is not totally useless. It saves the bird's life. So bullshit sometimes is useful
Second, when you're in deep shit, better shut your mouth.

Lame, right?

2010-11-14T15:55:00.000+08:00

Your Daily Horoscope: November 14, 2010

Pisces

The Moon enters your sign today, Pisces, and brings with it not only popularity, but some information that could be very helpful as far as your career is concerned. It's also possible that you might find yourself in a position in which you are speaking up for those who can't, or won't, speak up for themselves. Doing so could deeply impress someone who is likely to be quite important to you in the future. You'll have to be careful not to get involved in someone else's dramas today.
Compatibility: Scorpio
Mood: ~~Happy~~
Your Daily Lucky Color: Purple
Lucky Number: 24
Lucky Time of Day: 10am

Love Horoscope

Your emotions are rather intense these days, Pisces, especially when it comes to romance, and it is time that you stopped to deal with them. You have been holding back for some time, and rather unfairly at that. It is time that you provided full honesty to that person you have been avoiding, and if you do not address these concerns, you may well lose them forever. This is a situation where they may be feeling that they are out of patience, and are not going to be so ready to give you many more chances. All you need is a little honesty, no matter how bad you think that may be. You will be surprised to discover how willing they are to hear what you have to say, or that you even take the time to say it at all. Their gratitude will reward you immensely today, so bite the bullet.

2010-11-13T22:30:00.001+08:00

♥ A bad break up is like a broken mirror, better to leave it broken than hurting yourself trying to fix it.

♥ Behind every beautiful girl, there is a dumbass guy who did her wrong and made her strong.

♥ Have you ever noticed how a question mark looks like half a heart ? Maybe because everyone wants their answer.

♥ If you love two people at the same time, choose the second one. Because if you truly loved the first one, you wouldn’t love another one.

♥ Love is not who you can see yourself with. It is who you can't see yourself without.

♥ Sometimes, the easiest things to hold on to are the hardest ones to let go of.

♥ I don't know why they call it heartbreak. It feels like every part of my body is broken too.

♥ Love is like quicksand, the deeper and deeper you fall in, the harder it is to get out.

♥ Boys are like stars, there are millions of them out there, but only one can make your dreams come true.

♥ "It's impossible." said pride. "It's risky." said experience. "It's pointless." said reason. "Give it a try." whispered the heart.

♥ All the little things called, "PIECES"

♥ Loving you was easy but letting go was difficult

♥ The best feeling in the world is to be millions of miles away and still be able to picture his eyes.

♥ I miss you most when I'm sad. I miss you when I'm lonely. But most of all, I miss you when I'm happy.

♥ REAL LOSS only occurs when you lose someone you love more than yourself.

♥ Missing you isn't the hard part. Knowing I once had you is what breaks my heart.

♥ We don't stop loving someone, we simply learn to live without them.

♥ You don't die from a broken heart. You only wish you did.

♥ If you're going to make me cry, at least be there to wipe away my tears.

♥ If I hadn't met you, I wouldn't like you. If I hadn't liked you, I wouldn't love you. I f I wouldn't love you, I wouldn't miss you. But I did, I do and I will.

♥ You taught me how to love, but not how to stop.

♥ I was born the day I met you. Lived a while when you loved me. Died a little when we broke apart.

♥ Moving on is simple. It's what you leave behind that makes it so difficult.

♥ I'm going to smile and make you think I'm happy, I'm going to laugh, so you don't see me cry, I'm going to let you go in style, and even if it kills me - I'm going to smile.

The "Gathering"

2010-11-13T20:55:00.002+08:00

Had such an awesomely awesome day.. Although quite mhys
Really enjoyed my self...Although quite mhys
I was so desperate to get out of my house..And get out of my complicated thoughts :(
Someone's gonna be pissed if he knows this...
Journey starts when Choo Choo came my house at 11.15 a.m ♥

Ngem ngem cham cham

Went to book tickets

Skyline, this is what we gonna watch x)

This movie kinda sucks for me. It is disgusting, terrifying, confusing and cruel. It's a shame to scream in the cinema

Went for Sakae ♥ No pictures taken =S

After movie, went T.G.I Friday

Peanut butter chocolate pie ♥ Share with tut tut tut xD I love this ;D I'm sure I could finish whole piece of this IF I'm starving. Yum yum :)))

After the fun, here comes the emo part.
Ugh, I hate this part. Someone been freaking emo. :(

Back at 6pm

R & J T___T

Right after we reached home, here comes the guests for barbecue. Dad's friends.
Sorry, I wasn't in a good mood to entertain anyone.

Poor brother surrounded by bunch of "strangers"

I hate this

You know what? I am so regret for not taking any meals in Fridays. Cause I ended up eat nothing at home due to VIPPPPP guests zzzzzzzzz

P.S Thank you sooooo much for the accompany today. Really don't know how to 报答 you haha

2010-11-13T00:39:00.000+08:00

Boy, I miss you badly
your perfect smile
Your gaze in my eyes
Your fair skin
Your cherry lips
The scent of your shampoo
The laughter we joked
The warmth of your embrace
The sweet memories with you

Boy, how could you throw me away just like that?
When you know I can't live without you
When I'm expecting your forever
When I'm waiting for your bows and ring
When I'm looking forward for your "forever"
When I'm still madly in love with you

Boy, why didn't you accept me for who I am?
I accepted your stubborn
I accepted your arrogance
I accepted your ego
I accepted your temper
I accepted your ignorant
I accepted you for who you are

Boy, why didn't you tell me you still need me?
When I still expecting you to come back and tell me you love me
When I still expecting you still care
When I still expecting everything will be alright soon
When I still expecting you miss me
When I still expecting everything

Yes, like KS says..My life is meaningless without you

2010-11-12T17:48:00.001+08:00

Another day has gone.
Just for 2 days and I felt like 2 years.

I'm sure you're not having any problems dealing with this crap
As I see you used 1 minute to end a 1 year relationship like that
Did your life get more meaningful when I'm gone?
Or you just don't even bothered to think about it anymore?
I know I'm a nobody to you right now
And you know what?
I can't feel anything at all.
This is the worst feeling I ever had.
I'd rather feel sad than as empty as a drum
These few days I just use slumber to pass my days
I think it's the best remedy to make me not to think of anything
Stop acting emo there.
I know you'll say that for sure
What should I do?

我只是一个被他遗忘了的我

2010-11-12T12:41:00.000+08:00

JUSTIN WONG !

Noob, happy birthday~
Wish you had fun with your family in Cameron ^^
No presents for you. Hahaha !

I, you, We

2010-11-11T19:03:00.000+08:00

We always used to talk real late after midnight
Now the only thing we do on the phone is fight
Is there a way to make this go away
I don't think that we're gonna be okay

You were my hero and I was your sidekick
Now you're gonna be the tear that I cry when we split
I don't think that I can do this
It seems so wrong making up with only one kiss

Don't think that I could ever be
Able to stay with you now baby
'Cause in time I know that we'll both see
We're not meant to be

'Cause you're the one who makes me cry
You would never ever save me
All your words are full of lies
You're not the one I wanna marry

'Cause baby can't you see
We're just a fantasy
There's nothing we can do
We're not the perfect two

I thought you were my prince and I was your princess
Now that we're here all of that is meaningless
I think I was a fool for letting you fill the spaces
Between my hands and my diary pages

You used to be the one that made me happy
You used to tell me you were lucky to have me
Now you're as cold as the winter weather
But I don't care 'cause we're no longer together

Don't think that I could ever be
Able to stay with you now baby
Cuz in time I know that we'll both see
We're not meant be

Can't you see?
We're just a fantasy
There's nothing we can do

You know that I'll never love you
Like the way I ever used to
But you know I will remember you

Now that I'm gone I smile
It took me quite awhile
To see we won't walk the aisle

Cupid says we were not meant to be

Disengagement

2010-11-11T18:58:00.001+08:00

Don't know how to start this blog.
But I'm gonna write anyways.
Hmmm..

I'd let go everything.
You force me to.
I guess you just didn't take those warnings.
It's your decision, honey.
I respect you and your decision.
I've been thinking all over again.
Thanks for letting me know I'm having a problem for the second time.

So do you.

I just can't believe I could spend my whole day without shedding a tear.
Did my heart took narcotic? I can't feel a single pain.
Probably it's gone for now.
I'd lost my heart. In return, I gain back my pride and freedom.
But I guess that's not what I wanted the most.
Never mind. It's over now.

I'm gonna let you walk away from my world this time without saying a word.

2010-11-10T12:29:00.000+08:00

Ahh..canceled today.
I was kind of relieved more than I expected.
Don't know why..
Can't hide my feelings anymore.
It's been a long time...
It started to tear me apart.
Sometimes I just wish I could be separated into two

But like mom says: be careful what you wish for

Confused ;(

你太猖狂

2010-11-07T23:52:00.000+08:00

能约出来的人都约光
能吃得下的早已吃光
很用力谈笑
比哭还绝望
怎么挨得到打烊？
我以为痛苦可以分散
于是我忙到不能再忙
忙到忘记了洗掉你所有短讯
一字一巴打在我脸上
思念太猖狂一个冷不防
一想起你忙碌的生活变得空荡荡
对心事说谎
把你想到多么的不堪
伟大的你还想我怎样？
我以为工作可以疗伤
甚至恨不得病倒再算
没力气遐想谁知瘫痪在床上
越发渴望你就在身旁
思念太猖狂一个冷不防
一想起你忙碌的生活变得空荡荡
对心事说谎把你想到多么的不堪
伟大的你还想我怎样？
你也太猖狂一个冷不防
睡到一半才觉醒疗伤先要哭一场
对世界说谎只把自己哄骗的更惨
想得到释放只有投降

2010-11-07T23:34:00.000+08:00

IOI with Choo Qian Hui~
The first thing we do in IOI is find our darlingsss. Nah..Shouldn't say "find" cause we don't know where they working. Jie Min called us out only we know she's in front of us. LOL.

Went Wong Kok for lunch. :P

Karaoke with Qian Hui ♥
Favorite~ 你不知道的事

非你莫属 Reminds me of someone ;(

谢谢你的温柔 Reminds me of someone too ;(

寂寞寂寞就好~ 不好咯..

Finally this song has karaoke version. Happy ^.^

One of my favorite ♥

Dynamite x)

不能说的秘密 reminds me of VJ :P

Favorite ♥ Reminds me of someone again T____T

Funniest song. 路边的野花不要採 Choo Choo chose this LOL

Lastly...Bought this. I guess this is the hair dye shampoo Brenda mentioned about. But at last I still regret of buying it. Don't wanna dye hair ler. Aikss.. Just let my hair be original xP
Let's forget about it =X

2010-11-06T12:41:00.000+08:00

Not going anywhere today. I'll just stay at home and relax~~
I can't believe VJ has dyed his hair. ARGHHHHH ! Envy him T.T
I've always wanted to dye my hair for a longggggg time. Long enough ! Until now she still gives me a firm "NO" I wanna dye my hair dark blue or maroon T___T
Ok, fine. Wait till I graduate, right? I'm gonna dye my hair RAINBOW and freak you guys out. MUAHAHA :D

2010-11-05T21:17:00.000+08:00

Wonderful day
哈屁弟怕娃礼～
Welcome back, dad =)
Thanks for the sweet souvenirs xD

Mom's souvenir

I told dad that I had changed my mind. I ask for an iPod instead of an iPhone. Dad seems happy cause he thinks that iPod is cheap. But I didn't told him I want an APPLE IPOD, not normal mp3. I just begged him to bring me to IOI and take a "look" at it.

But at the end of the day......................

It's MINE :D Muahahahahahaha thanks a lot, dad. He even bought a speaker for me too.
After bought what I wanted, followed dad to Jusco. Met Sinyee and MK there. Wooots ♥

Went Sunway to fetch my bro. Saw Battleground competition. Gosh I was so darned excited. Dad suggests to drop me there but I refuse it. Popping out in front of video camera isn't a good idea. Don't have the chance to take pictures too. =( *regret regret*

Back to Puchong again. Went Cake Sense to buy some pastries for breakfast.

*saliva dripping*

I want that Strawberry Wonderland freaking bad. But that doesn't sell in pieces. :(

Then went Jusco and bought Wii games for brother. What a happy kid.
Been trying to fix my new iPod but it couldn't work. Then I just realized I had deleted my iTune.
So just ask my dear 师父 for information. Thanks noob hubby =P

DINNER~

Dad made some salad, bak kut teh and chicken chops for dinner.
Taste..erm.. At least won't "O-li-Du" xD

Brother's and mom been fighting for computer again~~ GTG

;P

2010-11-04T23:20:00.000+08:00

FRUSTRATED !

Should be going IOI with friends today..But... No transport.
Mom's car sent to repair while dad's worker uses his car to fetch him back from airport.
Sorry girls. We'll hang out during holidays kays?
Haih..
Been watching Supernatural for whole day =(
I guess I'll continue to go to school till holidays. Better than stay at home do nothing =.=

Even though exam's over but not as happy as I expected. Tons of stuff to worry =S
Why do we have so many things to worry when we getting older?
Had a small arguments with... again. For some reasons.
Why can't you just take my advice? I think it's really funny when you don't take my advice BUT you're expecting me to take yours. Stop being a donkey, can't you?

I feel like I can't hold this any longer.
What's the point of holding on when it only gives you doubts and problems?
You, get a life
Me, get a life, too.

2010-11-03T19:22:00.000+08:00

Girls' competition postponed to next Tuesday.
Haih..Not a bad idea. We need more trainings. It's a joke that a girl joins competition when she don't even know how to do any kick-offs =.=
So in the end we just do some practices near Koperasi =S

Anyways..Still a

for me..although kinda bored

Kinda had fun..although kinda hot
But overall okok lah..

And I got NO transport for tomorrow's date. Oh GEEEZ ! Hate it. I'll try think of another way :(

2010-11-02T22:02:00.000+08:00

Wheww~ Tiring day today D:
Finally finally and FINALLY, exam's really over. I could hear those people scream in joy after school xD
During chinese exams Muru suddenly came in our class. She asks us to take out all our phones, MP3 and cameras. Me and Choo Choo was listening to music at that moment. Gosh I thought I was dead. We just quickly stuff our stuff in our bag. Luckily she didn't notice our phone. 菩薩保佑～
So I just got this in the morning

Class gathering ! Weee kinda looking forward =3

Morning before exam

Jhuliann's desk....

Talk on the phone during school

Ban yeng xD

Cut it out~

Being sarcastic

10 minutes crap

Hehe.. Sejarah paper x)

Jia Hao~~

Awww sista, watcha doing? xD

Choo Choo's cream cheese tart. YUM :D

Blue blue sky ♥

My great grandma's antique
Nigel asks me: your grandma likes PLAYBOY?

Correction: my HOT great grandma's antique xD

Although it's really tiring but I really enjoyed my day with all my dears. It's been long time since we had great laughs and jokes together. ♥ Memorable day ^^

2010-11-01T21:23:00.001+08:00

Babubebibo~ Exam's finally OVERRRR. Weee *claps*
Get to change my blog skin, cursor and imagicon x)
I love this skin, but I don't like the "princess" and "love". LOL
Thought I could play computer games that I bought last week..But maid forgot where she put. Oh well... =.=
Thought can ..... tomorrow but gotta stay back for volley ball. Aiks.. Take it as the last stay back this year. Hope tomorrow will be sunny day during training

Good luck for those who's taking chinese tomorrow. I'll support you guys in dreams. Ngek ! xD

2010-10-31T19:40:00.000+08:00

其实你知道他根本就没有那么爱你，
其实你知道他什么都可以不在乎，
他不在乎你的感受也不在乎你，
他有他自己的世界，你却只能徘徊在外，
两个人是情侣，但他的朋友却重要过你...

有时候，你打电话给他，可他却没接，
等又等不到他的来电，于是你倔强地关起了手机，
以为你只要一开机，就会看到无数个未接来电，
但往往在你开机的时候，却始终都没有显示他的号码，
你知道你输了，因为开机后的你一定会再打电话给他，
两个人话也不多，只说重点，终点说完，电话就挂了...

骗自己说他有的他世界，他要忙，
骗自己说爱情总是该有点距离才会长久，
骗自己说他忙完以后一定会打给你，
骗自己说这本来就是他的性格...
久而久之，你真的不会轻易地call他了，
久而久之，你也习惯了他不在你的身边，
久而久之，你以为你已经不在乎了...

但你知道，其实你很在乎，在乎得不得了，
不找他只是因为你知道他不喜欢你烦，
不在他身边是因为他没太多的时间给你，
不在乎只是不要让全世界的人知道你在乎，
因为这是唯一能和他相处下去的方法，
要是太在乎，自己一定会被气疯掉...

有时候，爱上一个什么都不在乎的人真的很累，
他不一定是不爱你，他不一定是不对你好，
但他一定是一个不懂得该如何对你好的人，
想要被人关心时，少了一个问候，
想要被人拥抱时，少了一双手，
想要大声哭泣时，少了一个肩膀，
想要在他怀里找到一点温暖，
换来的却是片冷漠的冰川...

感觉两个人真的并不像是在谈恋爱，
他什么都不在乎，自己也要装作不在乎，
明明自己想要只想的只是一场幸福简单的恋爱，
但在他面前，一切却又显得得遥不可及了....

一直在想，有一天我一定会离开你身边，
不是因为我不够在乎你，而是因为你不曾在乎我...

为何在乎一个人会如此痛苦？

2010-10-31T16:47:00.001+08:00

Favi lyrics ♥

I try on the games that they play but they made me insane (World behind my wall- Tokio Hotel)

I wonder if I ever crossed your mind. For me, it happens all the time (Need you now- Lady Antebellum)

Now it's too late for you and your white horse to come around (White Horse- Taylor Swift)

I know there's no life after you (Life after you- Chris Daughtry)

Pretty, pretty boy of mine just tell me you love me too (Pretty boy- M2M)

I want your everything as long as it's free (Bad romance- Lady GaGa)

I'm sorry that I hurt you. It's something I must live with everyday (The reason- Hoobastank)

Just shout "whenever" and I'll be there (Baby- Justin Bieber)

Watching you is the only drug I need (Hey, soul sister- Train)

I try to sleep but the clock is stuck on thoughts of you and me (Inconsolable-Backstreet Boys)

Everything I do I give my heart and soul (When you're gone-Avril Lavigne)

Did you step too close to the fire? Like a liar looking for forgiveness from a stone (21 Guns-Green Day)

But if I had you, that would be the only thing I'd ever need ( If I had you-Adam Lambert)

Now all our memories, they're haunted ( Already gone-Kelly Clarkson)

In this moment now capture it, remember it (Fearless-Taylor Swift)

Where were you when everything was falling apart? (You found me-The Fray)

Am I bright enough to shine in your spaces? (All the right moves- One Republic)

Put your hand in my hand, baby, don't ever look back (Nothing's gonna stop us now-Starship)

You chose a weed over me, you're so lame (Too much to ask-Avril Lavigne)

Just don't let me disappear, Imma tell you everything (Secrets- One Republic)

I love you with a fire red, now it's turning blue ( Apologize- Timbaland)

Life is a maze and love is a riddle (The show- Lenka)

My heart stops when you look at me (Teenage dream- Katy Perry)

I love you forever, forever is over (Love drunk- Boys Like Girls)

I'm gonna smile cause I deserve to (Better in time-Leona Lewis)

All these masks we wore we never knew what we had in store (Something more-Secondhand Serenade)

I wanna celebrate and live my life (Dynamite- Taio Cruz)

The silence is slowly killing me (Misery- Maroon 5)

My doubts fade away when I'm kissing you (Kissin U- Miranda Cosgrove)

What you got boy, is hard to find (Your love is my drug- Ke$ha)

Honesty is honestly the hardest thing for me right now (The truth- Kris Allen)

You built up a world of magic because your real life is tragic (Brick by boring brick- Paramore)

These days I haven't been sleeping, staying up playing back myself leavin' when your birthday passed and I didn't call. (Back to December- Taylor Swift)

I wanna fall in love with you again (Let's just fall in love again- Jason Castro)

I've broken my heart so many times I stopped keeping track (Haven't met you yet- Michael Buble)

2010-10-29T17:32:00.000+08:00

RAWRRRR ! Exam's gonna over soon. 4 more papers to go.Huhu ♥
Soooooo~ I totally screwed up my addmath, physics and chemistry. Really gotta do better in paper 3 T^T
But I'm already in holiday mood xD Plus tomorrow....Ngek! Insanely expecting it ♥♥♥♥
Dad went Australia ady...Celebrate Melbourne Cup with his friends. I wanna go too T.T but thanks mom who sacrifice her air ticket and accompany me at home ! Cinta mu xP
Bon voyage daddy~ Most importantly my SOUVENIRS ! I want lots of choco ;D Although there's still two big bars of choco remain untouched in my fridge LOL. Getting greedy already T__T
And I had decided. I will wait for iPhone 5 next year. After heard what Choo Choo and Pn Yap said, I think iPhone 5 better. Wait for me, iPhone 5!
So I guess I'll just change iPhone to iPod. Well, since dad PROMISED me, I'll make sure he won't break that promise.

Recently I'm kinda into SUPERNATURAL.

Geez, Jensen Ackles (Dean) is so adorable ♥

Countdown: 4 freaking papers

2010-10-23T18:58:00.000+08:00

Just back from tuition. 3 hours of add math made my brain totally stuck :(
+ not feeling very well. Haih..But who cares? Not even him..Haha..
I DON'T KNOW HOW TO SIT MY TEST ON MONDAY ! T____T
Choo Choo followed me home after tuition. Had some girls' talk with her. Hehe..
Kind of sad, but I gotta tell the "truth". I want her to know everything from my mouth, but not others.
自己的事情，自己说出口是事实，别人说是是非
I hope I have the chance to explain to "them" and that person too. If only I could. Haih..
But it's already a past, so I think I'll just forget about it.

我假装过去不重要，却发现自己办不到

2010-10-22T23:51:00.000+08:00

"You just don't know me AT ALL ! Mom."
I guess most of the people used or say this often to their moms, including me.
I USED to think that my parents don't understand or know anything about me. Until the day I made my confessions to my mom....
When I was about 5 or 6, my dad used to had a huge antique like radio. I used it to listen to cassette tapes with that radio at night. So there's one day, I stuffed a cookie in the cassette tape and the radio was dead forever.
Murderer: Rachel Leong
Cause of death: got stuffed by a cookie and died
Yes, I do feel guilty about that "murder" when dad was mad to see the radio was completely broken down.
Dad sent to it to the factory and it can't help. I thought I was such a genius that my mom wouldn't found out. Cause she's not that kind of mother who boss over everything and hits her child with cane or stick. She don't even bother to ask me any questions like, what's your favorite food or something like that.
Or I bunch of naughty stuff that I always thought my parents wouldn't find out. What stuff? It's my childhood secret. Hehe...
After I made my confessions, my mom just said "I know"
God, at that moment I was kind of shock. So I asked her how did she know that, but she just says she knows EVERYTHING I did when I was little. Or even NOW. She even know what's my favorite or dislikes when I didn't even mention anything to her.
I guess dad knows everything too. Cause he's really smart. Mom tells me that parents DON'T get to know their children by just asking questions, but observations. So I think I'd better stop saying " you don't know/understand about me at all"...

2010-10-22T19:35:00.000+08:00

It's FRIIIDDDAAAYYYYYY ! Finally I can get some rest. Really exhausted D:
Although i'm kind of busy for exams and studies, blog's not abandoned ^^
Oh well, I can't believe our exams had started for A WEEK. Counting down to 7 days ^^
Screw JPS papers.. I can't believe those stupid papers could be sooooo freaking hard. Gosh, I'm already half dead now. I was thinking..If that paper was MATH, I'll RIP on Monday.
Guess what? Our dearest school had made up a new concept. You need a pass, maximum 2 people, write down your name and signature and worst of all, you gotta QUEUE UP. I think K*K was thinking of turning our school into a prison...
Today had Moral papers. Woots, those questions and tips my "god father" forward to me all came out. Luckily I get to revise ^^ And.... Hehe.
After recess we got Chinese test. Time to relax a bit x)
So went canteen with Choo Choo to buy some snacks. While we're on the way back, something weird happens. (to me)
I saw LVJ with Xavier walking towards us. Whoa ! O.o

"Why are you here?"
"And why are you here?"
"I thought you wanna stay in class?"
"I thought you going back to your class?"
"...."
Haha~

So, my biggest fears start on MONDAY-WEDNESDAY
I gotta work harder to pass. T____T kind of stressful eh..

2010-10-17T20:13:00.000+08:00

Exam's starting tomorrow. (are you sure?) O.O .... I just felt like I am STILL on a holiday. Haih suan ler. No time to worry much. Everyone, good luck tomorrow !

16.10.2010

2010-10-17T01:28:00.001+08:00

The moment I check the time on my phone, I know I was late. I got add math tuition at 2.00PM and I woke up at 1.50PM. Desmen was late too so tuition got postponed till 2.30PM.
In the afternoon, someone came to fix the fridge. I hope my chocolates don't have those raw meats+cheese+ mustard smells in it. You see, dad likes to buy those funny cheese with pink or blue spots on it. Worst of all, those cheese stayed in the fridge for a MONTH or MORE and no one barely touch it. I think those cheese began to smell kind of funnay.
Oh well, just forget about the funny cheese. So, MNT gave me a GREAT excuse of why he didn't reply me. Phone out of battery. To my opinion, if a phone out of battery and blacked out, text messages I sent won't be delivered UNTIL he on back his phone. I start to wonder what he's been doing that night...Well, It's ok to me as I'm already used to it. This is not the first time he give me such an excuse.
Tuition today was really hilarious. We had some jokes about Newton and Einstein. Choo Choo doesn't know who's Einstein, (you gotta be kidding me ! )so I just explain how does he looks like on that picture where he stuck his tongue out, bulging his eyes. I began to wonder what gonna happen to Physics Law when a durian dropped on Newton's head instead of an apple.
The funniest part is, someone broke a wooden chair ! Gosh I can't stop laughing my head off. Shh...I'd better don't reveal out who's the "lucky" guy. ;P
My day was almost perfect UNTIL "he" ruined EVERYTHING. Dang, I totally forgot I should avoid problems with him too. I really hate it when he releases his stupid anger on me. But I pay him back all those words he used to tell me.
What's wrong with you? Don't give me problems. I still got TONS to study. I'm really busy for exams.

This is how you treat me, and I'm paying you BACK !

I damn freaggin LOVE you, LVJ !

15.10.2010 FRIDAY

2010-10-17T01:02:00.001+08:00

I woke up at around 1.30PM today. Then I just went downstairs and left my phone on my bed. 30 minutes later, I went up to take my shower. I checked my phone before I go for shower. 6 miss calls from Desmen. I know something was wrong so I called back. When he answered the phone he started shouting at me. WTH?
So this is what happened:

Yesterday I just realized that I don't have an essay, antologi and karangan reference book. Desmen told me he's going popular after his school so I just asked him to help me buy what I needed. I already listed out what I WANT.

He told me there are all kinds of antologi there. Isn't the same book every form 4's using? =.= So we started argue on the phone. But I just let him be as I don't wanna continue argue with him like this.
During tuition, mathematics are driving me nuts. I was so mad that I threw my eraser on the floor. See, this is what low EQ people did when they're pissed.
Luckily, I get to cool off fast :D

VJ told me he was alone at home and he was REALLY thrilled about it. Shiok sendiri

My fridge's BROKE DOWN !
So mom just asked my maid to transfer EVERYTHING to my snack fridge. I'm not gonna touch any of my chocolates until everything got transferred back.
At night, I called daddy to bring me to popular cause I really need those books ASAP. A date with my dad wasn't easy. He'll just keep nagging, nagging, nagging and continue nagging until we reached.
Guess who I saw at popular? LEE ZHEN YU ~
Man I was so surprised that I hide myself in a corner =.=
After bought everything, went Sakae Sushi for dinner. YUM ! :D
I guess I'd lost contact with Mr Lim. No texts, no calls, no replies. This isn't the first time anyways. So I just have fun with Choo Choo on facebook and get to chat with J***** on MSN.
I think it's just a waste of time getting mad just because of waiting for my BF's phone call or reply.

2010-10-15T01:06:00.000+08:00

I finally get to have a nice little "chat" with dad today. He's been busy nowadays so I don't have a chance to talk to him. It's been a week since he says that he's going to buy me Iphone 4. So I just managed to ask him today before he goes to bed. Like I expected, he changes his mind. He says he could give me his Sony Ericsson Xperia cause he says he has no idea how to use those functions. It's a big NO for me. He says he just figured out that Xperia is as good as Iphone. So it's a waste for him to use that cause he only make phone calls and text messages. Still, I insist my NO. I say that he already PROMISED me he will buy me THAT. Finally he says he'll buy for me but don't know when. I was thinking of getting an Ipod as my birthday present. My Yari is out of memory and I can't transfer new songs all the time. I guess I'll just ask him after CNY.

Mom got diarrhea and fever. I already asked her to see doctor but she doesn't want to. Sometimes I don't understand about her.
This late evening when dad saw mom lying on the couch, looking pale and sick, he started to blame on ME for not taking care of her. I was like "W-H-A-T?!" I tried explain to him but he just don't take it. He even nags me when he sees me doing my mathematics in the living room. I explain to him that my maid is sleeping in my study room but he STILL don't accept my reasons. He asks me to do my work in dining room. But dining room and kitchen is one of the place that I keep as far as possible during at night. That's the place that cockroaches LOVE to fly around. I'd rather get a hunch back when I'm getting old than sitting in dining room with a bunch of cockroaches.
Everyone in my house is acting funny nowadays. I think I better not do anything to get myself into troubles.

2010-10-13T20:17:00.000+08:00

Remind me not to join volleyball when I'm not having PE
Most venturesome day I ever had.
I was almost bored to death in class. We learn nothing today and most of the classes got dismissed early.
I guess I'll just skip school until Monday.

My insomnia getting worse these few days. Mom gave me relax pill yesterday so I could sleep well but I think it's totally useless. So I just lie on the bed and waited till my alarm rang. This afternoon I've slept for 4 hours. I feel like I had fainted more than taking a nap. I hope it never happens to me anymore ESPECIALLY next week.
Forgot to say, yesterday I just trimmed the back of my hair. Just trim away the split ends, though. Luckily nobody figure out that my hair got shortened. I was kind of regret when I see the pile of hair on the floor.

Feel kinda upset today. It's sad when you're trying to satisfy someone but they didn't appreciate it much.
But it's ok. I'll just get over it.

There's this person I wanted to make friends with. I don't know why, but she's the first girl that makes me wanna make friend with her. Sounds awkward, huh?
She has pretty face that not only could attract boys, but girls too. She's just mysterious.
I just wanna know MORE about this little girl.

I need 6 months holidays, twice a week

2010-10-12T19:41:00.000+08:00

Dag nab schooling days. I rule =X
So, PMR was over NOW and I know it's OUR turn to drop to h*ll
I can't believe my private holidays are over in just a blink of my eyes.
The next thing I know, exams starting this Friday. Thank goodness I'm not Science Account student. Wish ya guys lurk :D
And I just realized I still got TONS to study...
Damn that government wants us to take JPS papers for finals. I gotta rush my physics and chemistry in A WEEK. Choo Choo told me JPS papers are much more tougher than our school ones. Are you sure about this? O.o
Gawd..Please don't freak me out.
Yesterday I was kinda stressful. So this is what mom told me:

Mom: Just treat everything as usual and try to relax yourself. It won't do anything good when you feel so tense during exams. If you really can't study right now, don't force yourself. Go take a rest.

Me: Oh yeah, mom. Because I always treat exams as nothing, that's why I always get such results for the past few exams.

Mom: ...I guess you better off to study now

PINPON !

It's just a joke. LOL

2010-10-10T13:58:00.000+08:00

Happy triple 10~ 101010
May everyone's wish come true today xD
And~ happy birthday to uncle R. Hahas. Thanks for the meal yesterday x)

So..What's up with me? Nothing.
Parents bought a new laptop and Xperia for themselves while I don't even know when they bought it. I started to nag them for whole afternoon. The good thing is, they promised to buy me a new Iphone 4 and a new laptop.
The bad thing is, they always forgot what they promised. =.=
I've been skipping studies for 3 days. Everyone's getting tense while I'm relaxing here, blogging and texting my beloved aunt.
You gotta take care of yourself, auntie.

2010-10-09T03:37:00.003+08:00

INSOMNIA! What the heck ! I can't sleep. I've been having sleepless nights for few days continuously.

"Something bugging you?"

Yeshh, but I can't figure out what's bugging me. Weird :(
I just realized something...My english getting regress..WORSE !
no, No, NO ! I'm not gonna leave my darned broken english continue like this. Time for improvement.
I've got TONS to study for finals. Hah, but I'm not stress at all. Funny me. Been consoling people not to stress themselves too much. I think I gotta add some tense to me.

Hmm..Everything was so RIGHT and PERFECT for me nowadays. So right it makes me feel wrong.
But life's a roller coaster, you just gotta taste the excitement of climax after a break down, righto?
Somehow..Kinda wish it never ends. xP

Frustrated..I can't stand it anymore. I really hate copy cats.
There are MILLIONS of choices you got, but why must you copy the others?
Oh, just a coincidence. No, I'm not gonna believe it.
If they're not gonna change, I'll change it then.
Can't stand having the same one as the others.
Who could?

Oh, lastly, important one.. Auntie, better take care of yourself. Get well soon ;D
LOL=Lot's of love,

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